我说：头疼，扑通 扑通 扑通的疼。
国宝冒了一句：睡！
一个字就让我感动到心暖。
我说：药都留在公司，没药呢。
刚好护士进来量体温 血压，
国宝又冒出另一句：“Missy~ Panadol 两粒，她的！”
我都快飚泪了！他在关心我呢~ 真的是五个月来的头一遭~
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Monday, May 16, 2011
晕驾
不知怎的，今天病了5小时。
应该是太阳吧，我allergic to烈日当头，晒一晒，就头昏脑胀，想吐，然后就冒冷汗，坐也不是 站也不是 什么也不是，同事递来止头痛药，我在休息室躺了一会，睡去了，又惊醒，告诉自己：千万不能病倒。这不是第一次的头痛冒冷汗，但却是第一次自己承担，硬撑着驾驶盘-晕驾- 没办法，生病对现在的我来说太奢侈了。
应该是太阳吧，我allergic to烈日当头，晒一晒，就头昏脑胀，想吐，然后就冒冷汗，坐也不是 站也不是 什么也不是，同事递来止头痛药，我在休息室躺了一会，睡去了，又惊醒，告诉自己：千万不能病倒。这不是第一次的头痛冒冷汗，但却是第一次自己承担，硬撑着驾驶盘-晕驾- 没办法，生病对现在的我来说太奢侈了。
Sunday, May 15, 2011
雨季？
这几天，雨不停的下，停了，又再下一场，是雨季提早来了吗？
神啊，赐我更大的力量更宽宏的心胸吧，路，短一点就好，太长，很难熬的。
一年过了又一年，不想以前是不可能的，那些回忆太深刻了，不看回头就不会幢憬以后，不怀念过去我也不知道曾经得到许多，现在暂时失去的，我会尽全能追回来，雨大雨小还是会过去的，看见月亮后太阳还是会出现，迟早而已，星光灿补灿烂云层变化无穷都只不过是天大地阔的小点缀，我不在意。雨季，总比暴风雪好吧？活的总比死的精彩。
神啊，赐我更大的力量更宽宏的心胸吧，路，短一点就好，太长，很难熬的。
一年过了又一年，不想以前是不可能的，那些回忆太深刻了，不看回头就不会幢憬以后，不怀念过去我也不知道曾经得到许多，现在暂时失去的，我会尽全能追回来，雨大雨小还是会过去的，看见月亮后太阳还是会出现，迟早而已，星光灿补灿烂云层变化无穷都只不过是天大地阔的小点缀，我不在意。雨季，总比暴风雪好吧？活的总比死的精彩。
Saturday, May 14, 2011
洪武三十二
~星期六。第139天。晴~
只有我们俩在301号房，看无线的洪武三十二，我没专心剧情，但国宝看得很开心。打从昨晚开始到今早，他心情低落，表情无聊，没有胃口，闷闷不乐，怎么逗他也无补于事，由于隔离，我只好坐在沙发一角，忽然国宝问：做麽没有回？ 我反问-回那里？-他说：回KL。噢~原来他想起我曾经计划这个周末回老家而闷闷不乐。我说：舍不得，不回了，陪你。我看见那翘一角的嘴唇，他笑了，我心也绵了。这些日子，看见他呼噜呼噜的 我才能入睡，看着看着真的好心疼，不舍。看见念电视的他 我有被吓到。看见按电脑键盘的他 我愕然。看见他 我不解 为什么人脑那么复杂，明明记忆力超强的却无法连贯无法组织，观察力超敏感的却欠缺分析，渐有起色的病情却一波未平一波又来，这场战，我只好越战越勇了。
噢~又下雨了！果然天有不测之风云，人有三衰六旺。Have Faith!
只有我们俩在301号房，看无线的洪武三十二，我没专心剧情，但国宝看得很开心。打从昨晚开始到今早，他心情低落，表情无聊，没有胃口，闷闷不乐，怎么逗他也无补于事，由于隔离，我只好坐在沙发一角，忽然国宝问：做麽没有回？ 我反问-回那里？-他说：回KL。噢~原来他想起我曾经计划这个周末回老家而闷闷不乐。我说：舍不得，不回了，陪你。我看见那翘一角的嘴唇，他笑了，我心也绵了。这些日子，看见他呼噜呼噜的 我才能入睡，看着看着真的好心疼，不舍。看见念电视的他 我有被吓到。看见按电脑键盘的他 我愕然。看见他 我不解 为什么人脑那么复杂，明明记忆力超强的却无法连贯无法组织，观察力超敏感的却欠缺分析，渐有起色的病情却一波未平一波又来，这场战，我只好越战越勇了。
噢~又下雨了！果然天有不测之风云，人有三衰六旺。Have Faith!
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
火热的我
你：
在车龙困了两个半小时的我，匆匆忙忙地赶到慢煎糕的夜摊，摆空城镇，碰钉子了，只好放弃。我一踏进门，看见躺在沙发的你，看见那两碟空盘，看似很劳累的你，应该是享用了很温饱的晚餐 然后很写意地躺在客厅小睡，我不打算打扰你，只管把自己该做的功夫尽快完成，很奇怪地，我把吃的准备好，把喝的茅根草装进大水罐里，甚至和另外的两个闲聊起来，你，不闻就算了，竟然也不问，那晚千吩咐万吩咐你 千万要尽量去探访，你虽然应了-嗯-，但你食言，或许，你觉得你会迷路吧，还是，探访后你会得急病？我，摸不着头脑，想不透，不明白你人生的价值观，也不认同你的价值观，火热的我，气透了，人真的可以这么做的吗？
我上。
（注：己所不欲勿施于人；人在做天在看）
在车龙困了两个半小时的我，匆匆忙忙地赶到慢煎糕的夜摊，摆空城镇，碰钉子了，只好放弃。我一踏进门，看见躺在沙发的你，看见那两碟空盘，看似很劳累的你，应该是享用了很温饱的晚餐 然后很写意地躺在客厅小睡，我不打算打扰你，只管把自己该做的功夫尽快完成，很奇怪地，我把吃的准备好，把喝的茅根草装进大水罐里，甚至和另外的两个闲聊起来，你，不闻就算了，竟然也不问，那晚千吩咐万吩咐你 千万要尽量去探访，你虽然应了-嗯-，但你食言，或许，你觉得你会迷路吧，还是，探访后你会得急病？我，摸不着头脑，想不透，不明白你人生的价值观，也不认同你的价值观，火热的我，气透了，人真的可以这么做的吗？
我上。
（注：己所不欲勿施于人；人在做天在看）
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
匪夷所思
当我紧张一件事情，我会很迫切的追问详情与进展，渴望能了解前因后果，希望讨个明白。
当我关心某某人，我会很紧张关于他的好与坏，我，无法置之不理，看见了听见了就会开口问。我无法想像，自己的亲人，用紧闭的双唇去紧张去关心，那和沉默的路人没分别。即使开口了，也未必带有智慧，那种落井下石的慰问，比在伤口上撒盐再加上冰块一样，苦上加痛 痛上加霜。人，原来还是有幸与不幸的，我对自己的幸运有了新的领悟，上天早已安排好。
当我关心某某人，我会很紧张关于他的好与坏，我，无法置之不理，看见了听见了就会开口问。我无法想像，自己的亲人，用紧闭的双唇去紧张去关心，那和沉默的路人没分别。即使开口了，也未必带有智慧，那种落井下石的慰问，比在伤口上撒盐再加上冰块一样，苦上加痛 痛上加霜。人，原来还是有幸与不幸的，我对自己的幸运有了新的领悟，上天早已安排好。
EveryTime
Everytime I close my eyes
I dream about your smile
I think I have found
the one who made me the crown.
Everytime I close my arms
I can feel your hugging warmth
I think I have fallen
Fallen under your charms.
I dream about your smile
I think I have found
the one who made me the crown.
Everytime I close my arms
I can feel your hugging warmth
I think I have fallen
Fallen under your charms.
Monday, May 9, 2011
点好？！
无助，很无助的星期一早晨。
不爽了，很难一下子爽回。我明白。
幸普森说：我们往往都会对我们最在意最关心的人发脾气，越紧张这个人就会越愿意露出我们的情绪。我当然不否认，但原来受气并不难受，真正难受的是我无法让他快乐起来，很心疼，很后悔，说错的话再也收不回了。
不爽了，很难一下子爽回。我明白。
幸普森说：我们往往都会对我们最在意最关心的人发脾气，越紧张这个人就会越愿意露出我们的情绪。我当然不否认，但原来受气并不难受，真正难受的是我无法让他快乐起来，很心疼，很后悔，说错的话再也收不回了。
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
百分之百
- 100% -
值得思考的：小学生试卷考个100分，就觉得那是best score了；升中学科学考个100分或许就是非常了不起的满分了，高考数学得A1的人数之不尽，best grade又如何呢？上了大学，4.0GPA的答卷真的完美无瑕么？在研究院里，谁在乎满分呢？论文无法有突破的论证，100分的试卷也无法取而代之。婚后，另一半会替你设定100分的评估吗？公司里的老板会让你活在100%？下属会称赞你的议程一百分？？ 开玩笑！是那个白痴让100% 为极限呢？80岁的老伯伯都会知道大学的100分 比小学一年班的100分死去的细胞 多好多好多倍。人生，如何设定满分的标准？及格率呢？
人的极限，难测；脑力的极限，有待证实；我的极限，绝对无边无际，就算有，或许是在赤道的另一边，不是没有，而是看不见。
从小，我就知道 英国皇家钢琴考试，100分只是仅仅过关-Pass；要考上120分才有Merit，然后130分以上就是Distinction。
当我在为人生的难题准备500分大关的时候，请别告诉我你已经付出了50%，也别自作聪明认为你帮我减轻了50% 的负担，100分早就不是我的极限了。
值得思考的：小学生试卷考个100分，就觉得那是best score了；升中学科学考个100分或许就是非常了不起的满分了，高考数学得A1的人数之不尽，best grade又如何呢？上了大学，4.0GPA的答卷真的完美无瑕么？在研究院里，谁在乎满分呢？论文无法有突破的论证，100分的试卷也无法取而代之。婚后，另一半会替你设定100分的评估吗？公司里的老板会让你活在100%？下属会称赞你的议程一百分？？ 开玩笑！是那个白痴让100% 为极限呢？80岁的老伯伯都会知道大学的100分 比小学一年班的100分死去的细胞 多好多好多倍。人生，如何设定满分的标准？及格率呢？
人的极限，难测；脑力的极限，有待证实；我的极限，绝对无边无际，就算有，或许是在赤道的另一边，不是没有，而是看不见。
从小，我就知道 英国皇家钢琴考试，100分只是仅仅过关-Pass；要考上120分才有Merit，然后130分以上就是Distinction。
当我在为人生的难题准备500分大关的时候，请别告诉我你已经付出了50%，也别自作聪明认为你帮我减轻了50% 的负担，100分早就不是我的极限了。
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
无期徒刑
无期徒刑是介于有期徒刑和死刑之间的一种严厉的刑罚。无期徒刑剥夺终身自由，并强制劳动改造。我目前的赚钱生计犹如无期徒刑，工作思想被剥夺自由，工作灵魂也被强制劳改，我，行尸走肉的上班，遇见的人个个面像狱长，偶遇一两个肯挨义气的同僚，但又岂能还我革命的重生呢？每天往右边仅有的窗户看去，飞机起落，但它从哪儿飞来 往哪儿飞去， 我不懂，他们不都说-过程最重要-么？我就是看不见飞机的在云层间的飞程，起点和降落往往被误时。我心里充满期待，期待我的私家飞机，我的专属机师，只有身在机舱里，才能懂得飞行的旅程。我明白我不再有白马王子的相遇，我只期待一个愉快的飞行。
Monday, May 2, 2011
我太疯
别人笑我太疯癫，我笑他人看不穿。
我笑你，不是嘲笑不是讥笑，而是真心的开心。
我骂你，不是恨你怒你，而是坦白的表现。
我发脾气，不是气你，我只是当下需要一个了解我的出气筒。
我让你帮忙，不是揾你笨，是因为我确定你善良。
我向你诉苦，不是因为你好谈，而是我真的需要一双耳朵。
我在你面前哭，不是贪图你的肩膀，而是在你面前我不介意，上帝让我们都有泪腺是意义重大的。
我对你好，不是因为我鸡婆，天生好心肠的人总会遇上值得她付出的好人的。
我爱上你，不是上辈子欠你的，而是这一世我还没爱上别一个。
我笑你，不是嘲笑不是讥笑，而是真心的开心。
我骂你，不是恨你怒你，而是坦白的表现。
我发脾气，不是气你，我只是当下需要一个了解我的出气筒。
我让你帮忙，不是揾你笨，是因为我确定你善良。
我向你诉苦，不是因为你好谈，而是我真的需要一双耳朵。
我在你面前哭，不是贪图你的肩膀，而是在你面前我不介意，上帝让我们都有泪腺是意义重大的。
我对你好，不是因为我鸡婆，天生好心肠的人总会遇上值得她付出的好人的。
我爱上你，不是上辈子欠你的，而是这一世我还没爱上别一个。
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Last.Day.Of.April
不像以往的自己，今天，我的确干下了不少不要脸的事，但自己却会觉得-还okay-，我，是没药救的了，不能接受我的歪理 或`某些你觉得不寻常的事却发生了，任它们吧，任我吧！
后补：
我，干了什么呢？ 我竟然到了初归新抱的娘家，新娘子已被新郎接出门了，我赶紧给伯母递上了红包，然后问伯母：“还有什么吃的吗？”有也~我就不客气地在内厅享用我的午餐了，竹笋鸡超好吃，大虾很新鲜，伯母还给我一盒漂亮的嫁女饼，她说“我女儿很漂亮很善良很好的，她说你很好。”哈! 对对对，从又漂亮又善良又好的人来介绍我，我是真的很好的啦~ 吃饱了，再恭贺伯母一番，我就回家小睡。路上，好多红绿灯，我打捆了，捆了好几次，还蛮危险，很饱，好累。傍晚，我竟然把车子驶回去公司，奇怪吧，我星期六会公司搞什么搞，费时费力费精神，我，还是挺着那Disagree&Commit的无聊精神，只为了证明，干不干都一样，有我没我都一样，尽责 不代表那付出是有意义的，怠慢 也不代表我是没责任感的人，我只是不爱做个被扯线的木偶。
后补：
我，干了什么呢？ 我竟然到了初归新抱的娘家，新娘子已被新郎接出门了，我赶紧给伯母递上了红包，然后问伯母：“还有什么吃的吗？”有也~我就不客气地在内厅享用我的午餐了，竹笋鸡超好吃，大虾很新鲜，伯母还给我一盒漂亮的嫁女饼，她说“我女儿很漂亮很善良很好的，她说你很好。”哈! 对对对，从又漂亮又善良又好的人来介绍我，我是真的很好的啦~ 吃饱了，再恭贺伯母一番，我就回家小睡。路上，好多红绿灯，我打捆了，捆了好几次，还蛮危险，很饱，好累。傍晚，我竟然把车子驶回去公司，奇怪吧，我星期六会公司搞什么搞，费时费力费精神，我，还是挺着那Disagree&Commit的无聊精神，只为了证明，干不干都一样，有我没我都一样，尽责 不代表那付出是有意义的，怠慢 也不代表我是没责任感的人，我只是不爱做个被扯线的木偶。
~Amazing.Grace~Now.I.See
Amazing grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.
That saved a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.
T'was Grace that taught...
My heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear...
The hour I first believed.
Through many dangers, toils and snares...
We have already come.
T'was Grace that brought us safe thus far...
And Grace will lead us home.
The Lord has promised good to me...
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be...
As long as life endures.
When we've been here ten thousand years...
Bright shining as the sun.
We've no less days to sing God's praise...
Then when we've first begun.
Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.
My heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear...
The hour I first believed.
Through many dangers, toils and snares...
We have already come.
T'was Grace that brought us safe thus far...
And Grace will lead us home.
The Lord has promised good to me...
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be...
As long as life endures.
When we've been here ten thousand years...
Bright shining as the sun.
We've no less days to sing God's praise...
Then when we've first begun.
Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Northam.Beach.Cafe
A blissful night at Burmah Road's Chok.Dee.Thai Restaurant~~ I still prefer Khuntai at Butterworth, more kick, more feel~~ A blissful night because I could have good laughs at Northam.Beach.Cafe. Though I didn't taste the Omelette, my eyes ate it well~~
DayTime was bit nasty... I wasn't in good mood for a rainy Friday... WHY would people complicate things? WHY can't they make their life easier by telling me the simplest way to complete the tasks? WHY would they so look up to me that I am capable to understand what they really want? WHY not just gimme a break, give yourself a break, give the laptop a break, give your exhausted heart a break... why broke me? why broke yourself? why broke the laptop? why broke my bone from my back??? WHY I need to explain SO MUCH?? Issit really that FUN to ask details that you won't remember right after all? Hmmm.... start to doubt at Law.Of.Attractions.....
DayTime was bit nasty... I wasn't in good mood for a rainy Friday... WHY would people complicate things? WHY can't they make their life easier by telling me the simplest way to complete the tasks? WHY would they so look up to me that I am capable to understand what they really want? WHY not just gimme a break, give yourself a break, give the laptop a break, give your exhausted heart a break... why broke me? why broke yourself? why broke the laptop? why broke my bone from my back??? WHY I need to explain SO MUCH?? Issit really that FUN to ask details that you won't remember right after all? Hmmm.... start to doubt at Law.Of.Attractions.....
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Tropicana Twister!
这些在病房的日子，除了饭 吃得比往年的份量多了无数倍之外，Subway 和余任生，Tropicana Twister的功劳也很大，真的还没遇过 会在病房里增磅的人，我无时无刻都是例外，都说我是-能屈能伸-的女强人，我的伸张能力不是盖的，只是不想被病菌缠身，所以选择进食那些所谓又健康又能增加体力有会让我FeelGood的，零食也功德无量，不能想象没有零食的8个钟 我能怎么熬过去，没有防止我舌头溃烂的零食，即使留得住上网的我，也留不住手痒的我。胡说八道。
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
坚持？固执？原则？
塞车的时候，我一直在想，谁影响我最深呢？今天的我因为谁而修成今天的我呢？这的确是一个值得花时间去思考的问题。曾经，他们告诉我，他们被我影响了，他们说我老是把静静的他们闹得热哄哄，他们说我让其他人改变，他们也说我让他们看见其他人的另一面，有吗？我让节俭的人花钱了么？我让严肃的人狂笑了么？我让他们变成了另外一个人么？我那么有感染力吗？那，谁又改变了我呢？我，只有adapt.
坚持信念 是一种美德，固执的自我 要不得，原则 是让自己良心好过一点的理由，很固执地去坚持自以为是的原则，Oh no! 身边的人是会感到压力的，压到透不过气。接受 是一回事，承受 又是另一回事。年轻人，别太盲目的执着，损人不利己，放轻松吧~
放手，是一门学问，放手 不是放开别人，而是放开自己 放下自己 放松自己，给自己另一条出路。
坚持信念 是一种美德，固执的自我 要不得，原则 是让自己良心好过一点的理由，很固执地去坚持自以为是的原则，Oh no! 身边的人是会感到压力的，压到透不过气。接受 是一回事，承受 又是另一回事。年轻人，别太盲目的执着，损人不利己，放轻松吧~
放手，是一门学问，放手 不是放开别人，而是放开自己 放下自己 放松自己，给自己另一条出路。
Saturday, April 23, 2011
合艾一日游
到合艾的目的只有一个，上香。我这么说，有点不可思议吧，但，这世上就是充满着许许多多的不可思议，坏的 测不来，好的 量不到，我本来不是个谜信的人，有些事情，你不必谜，你只需相信，香没上得着，只好留待下一趟。
终于提着我的新护照过关卡。今天的吃相要不得，压力吧，食物就像镇定剂一样，让人不再焦虑，让人舒服。好朋友 不可多得。
终于提着我的新护照过关卡。今天的吃相要不得，压力吧，食物就像镇定剂一样，让人不再焦虑，让人舒服。好朋友 不可多得。
Friday, April 22, 2011
被相信？还是，被关心好？
很矛盾。
被信任 固然是好事，但，我应该比较享受被关心。朋友都不会太担心我，认为我是很坚强的，应该难不倒我的，我会应付得来，我会很快又乐观起来的，我总比别人想到更多的方法的，我会有好多人帮忙我的，好像我是不会遇到挫折去跳楼的那种人，好像我不会轻易地说放弃，好像我一个人也能撑得住那样，这样的信任，不是太看得起我了吗？以前国宝都说我是没遇过什么风浪的人，没受过什么苦头，也不知道什么叫-生活艰难-，想要得到什么，撒撒娇，就可以得到了。我被宠惯了，他何尝不是也一样被我宠惯了呢？我宁可被宠 被关心 被紧张，我喜欢有人关心我的想法 紧张我的心情，我不想逞强了。
被信任 固然是好事，但，我应该比较享受被关心。朋友都不会太担心我，认为我是很坚强的，应该难不倒我的，我会应付得来，我会很快又乐观起来的，我总比别人想到更多的方法的，我会有好多人帮忙我的，好像我是不会遇到挫折去跳楼的那种人，好像我不会轻易地说放弃，好像我一个人也能撑得住那样，这样的信任，不是太看得起我了吗？以前国宝都说我是没遇过什么风浪的人，没受过什么苦头，也不知道什么叫-生活艰难-，想要得到什么，撒撒娇，就可以得到了。我被宠惯了，他何尝不是也一样被我宠惯了呢？我宁可被宠 被关心 被紧张，我喜欢有人关心我的想法 紧张我的心情，我不想逞强了。
Thursday, April 21, 2011
好好谈一场恋爱
星期四。晚
在公司一天，迟到，早退，没完成任何一个任务，没有贡献的八个小时，谈了很多通的电话，喝了好多咖啡和菊花茶，脑袋漂移时空好多圈，正常的我。
放工了，多爽快。一个小时的karaoke，难得偷闲，却有“赶工”的心情，赶着点歌，赶着唱，赶着喝我的柠檬蜂蜜，赶着时间，赶着回家，很赶，这让我有生命的赶觉，想好好谈一场恋爱。
不设年龄，不设性别，不设将来，只有手拉手过马路，不放手的拥抱，心花怒放的kiss~
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每次经过日落洞大道，我都会格外提防，这是发生很多命案的大道，我会害怕自己瞌睡。
刚才的车祸，应该蛮吓人的，我安全的过了现场，心里却十分害怕，害怕一个人，害怕没有依靠，害怕没得被爱，害怕没得被好好的宠坏。害怕短暂的快乐。害怕黑。
在公司一天，迟到，早退，没完成任何一个任务，没有贡献的八个小时，谈了很多通的电话，喝了好多咖啡和菊花茶，脑袋漂移时空好多圈，正常的我。
放工了，多爽快。一个小时的karaoke，难得偷闲，却有“赶工”的心情，赶着点歌，赶着唱，赶着喝我的柠檬蜂蜜，赶着时间，赶着回家，很赶，这让我有生命的赶觉，想好好谈一场恋爱。
不设年龄，不设性别，不设将来，只有手拉手过马路，不放手的拥抱，心花怒放的kiss~
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每次经过日落洞大道，我都会格外提防，这是发生很多命案的大道，我会害怕自己瞌睡。
刚才的车祸，应该蛮吓人的，我安全的过了现场，心里却十分害怕，害怕一个人，害怕没有依靠，害怕没得被爱，害怕没得被好好的宠坏。害怕短暂的快乐。害怕黑。
生命里最重要的角色？
12岁以下的孩童应该会回答：-- Kakak。
蜂人很感恩：-- 出外靠朋友。
一个人，远离城市，远离熟悉的一切，远离温室，远离乌托邦，远离MackMack和JackJack。
这地方，没有同姓氏的，没有同血缘的，没有热闹的PasarMalam，没有GPS，没有安心的爱。
带着遇强则强的固执，我有能分享的朋友，能分担的朋友，替我看前顾后的朋友，帮我帮到义无反顾的朋友，耐心听我说话的朋友，贴心为我着想的朋友，任劳任怨任笑任骂的朋友，该说的说，该做的做，该帮的帮，该买的买，该骂的又不会骂，不该忍的又忍，我曾经一定是一个好人，所以现在让其他好人来对我好好。
爱情，没保障。朋友，价更高! --（亲人，无得拣 ）--
蜂人很感恩：-- 出外靠朋友。
一个人，远离城市，远离熟悉的一切，远离温室，远离乌托邦，远离MackMack和JackJack。
这地方，没有同姓氏的，没有同血缘的，没有热闹的PasarMalam，没有GPS，没有安心的爱。
带着遇强则强的固执，我有能分享的朋友，能分担的朋友，替我看前顾后的朋友，帮我帮到义无反顾的朋友，耐心听我说话的朋友，贴心为我着想的朋友，任劳任怨任笑任骂的朋友，该说的说，该做的做，该帮的帮，该买的买，该骂的又不会骂，不该忍的又忍，我曾经一定是一个好人，所以现在让其他好人来对我好好。
爱情，没保障。朋友，价更高! --（亲人，无得拣 ）--
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
谁对自己最好？
这个人应该要是 - 自己，但我们都把这名誉让给别人，出差错了，可以怪罪，可以埋怨，但杀不死他，最后，自杀。
谁应该对自己最好呢？我又会对谁最最最最好呢？为什么要有期待呢？
简单的问：
有一件值得高兴的事情，谁会是我第一个call的？
有一个应付不来的难题，谁会是我第一个求救的？
一个人好，还是两个人好？
我 有什么好呢？只因为我选择让自己来对自己好？好人难当，好人的泪也难干。
我的小宇宙漂去月球了，剩1/6。
谁应该对自己最好呢？我又会对谁最最最最好呢？为什么要有期待呢？
简单的问：
有一件值得高兴的事情，谁会是我第一个call的？
有一个应付不来的难题，谁会是我第一个求救的？
一个人好，还是两个人好？
我 有什么好呢？只因为我选择让自己来对自己好？好人难当，好人的泪也难干。
我的小宇宙漂去月球了，剩1/6。
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
世上谁最好？
？？？？？
自己。
自己都不觉得自己好，谁会呢？
自己都不爱自己，谁会呢？
自己都不仰慕自己，谁会呢？
自己都不体恤自己，谁会呢？
自己不为自己着想，谁会呢？
妈妈？
妈妈，最伟大。
伟大，就是好？
。。。又有喜 又有愁 就算分不清欢笑悲忧
。。。仍愿翻 百千浪 在我心中起伏够
自己。
自己都不觉得自己好，谁会呢？
自己都不爱自己，谁会呢？
自己都不仰慕自己，谁会呢？
自己都不体恤自己，谁会呢？
自己不为自己着想，谁会呢？
妈妈？
妈妈，最伟大。
伟大，就是好？
。。。又有喜 又有愁 就算分不清欢笑悲忧
。。。仍愿翻 百千浪 在我心中起伏够
黑蜘蛛翻唱--我怀念的
今天在车子里一直听同一片CD，黑蜘蛛的专辑，翻版的，不买正版因为他也是在翻唱别的歌手的精曲而已，但就是首首都那么地好听，天赋的歌声，我钟爱的唱腔，同一首歌，他的味道很浓，浓到我几乎每一首都泪流满面，煽情吧，Simpson说我是 -哭包-，我的确是，控制不了，一个人单处的时候，流泪以成为我的hobby了，并不是每一次都是伤感的，我没有自虐的倾向，我只是为每一次的思念感动，太多开心与感动的画面，历历在目，那么多的争吵都失去意义，经营了那么多年的感情也还需面对考验，上天真的公平对待我们吗？我曾经推耸的那个-公平的上天- 幻灭了。眼前的一切，太不公平了。
杨综伟退赛；萧敬藤同曲PK就输在那么一句；舞台不是说有才华的人就一定能站出一片天的；感情不一定说有付出就会有王子与公主的结局；尽力而为也未必能满足别人；我爱你，你也非势必爱我；缘分，遇上了，未必能手牵手，擦肩而过的。。。 。。。
萧敬藤 -- 我怀念的
我怀念的 是无话不说 我怀念的 是一起作梦
我怀念的 是争吵以后 还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空 最紧的右手 最暖的胸口
谁记得 谁忘了
我怀念的 是无言感动 我怀念的 是绝对炽热
我怀念的 是你很激动 求我原谅抱得我都痛
我记得你在背后 也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌 最美的烟火 最长的相拥
谁爱得太自由 谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心 谁忘了那就是承诺
谁自顾自地走 谁忘了看着我 谁让爱变沉重 谁忘了要给你温柔
杨综伟退赛；萧敬藤同曲PK就输在那么一句；舞台不是说有才华的人就一定能站出一片天的；感情不一定说有付出就会有王子与公主的结局；尽力而为也未必能满足别人；我爱你，你也非势必爱我；缘分，遇上了，未必能手牵手，擦肩而过的。。。 。。。
萧敬藤 -- 我怀念的
我怀念的 是无话不说 我怀念的 是一起作梦
我怀念的 是争吵以后 还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空 最紧的右手 最暖的胸口
谁记得 谁忘了
我怀念的 是无言感动 我怀念的 是绝对炽热
我怀念的 是你很激动 求我原谅抱得我都痛
我记得你在背后 也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌 最美的烟火 最长的相拥
谁爱得太自由 谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心 谁忘了那就是承诺
谁自顾自地走 谁忘了看着我 谁让爱变沉重 谁忘了要给你温柔
Sunday, April 17, 2011
难得偷闲
回家了，买了两块钱的鱼丸，黄姜鸡，炸香蕉一条，还有路边摊的清凉茶，都是那些曾经的曾经，车子停在RajaUda的红绿灯前，眼泪不停地打转，过去那段日子，吵吵闹闹的不是很好吗？ 在家的沙发歇了一歇，没能放松，原来难得偷闲的下午并不一定是写意的，怀念曾经的那些曾经，那些无聊的周末，睡醒了就找吃的，吃了就睡，睡醒了又嘻嘻哈哈吵吵闹闹的，然后又手拉手去找吃的。 今天，难得以为自己有几个小时的轻松时间，却一刻也不能放松。人家都说：往前看，过去让它过去。我接下来的路还很远，也更艰难了，根本没时间往后看了，但偶尔还是会很自责。真的很后悔我没及时制止这一切，我让很多人难受了。
Subway代言人
爱上吃Subway三文治，是在美国念大学的时候，那时的Subway感觉好贵，零用钱总是不太舍得花在快餐，但就是好好吃，1-foot-long也难不倒我。回家后，Subway也好像不太热门，感觉比在美国卖得更贵了！想不到，现在差不多天天都在嚼那6寸长的SubwayClubMelt，坦白说，真的还吃不腻呢~真的好好吃，新鲜的蔬菜，脆脆的，爽口的，咔嚓咔嚓地一口一口地嚼，别说我肚子的饱满，国宝吃了还真的比以前精神多了，好像Popeye吃了Spinach一样，会突然坐起身来嘻哈大笑，我们倆真的够资格当Subway代言人了。好好吃，不是瞎你的哟~
Friday, April 15, 2011
天天感恩。充电
咳嗽，也遇见拔刀相助的贵人，人间依旧充满希望~
最近都熬到很累，想share多一点点也没时间没精神没力气，很容易进入瞌睡状态。但我还是很感恩身边不乏善待我的人，有人陪我挂号看医生，那种感觉是很放心的，那种原来我不是一个可怜人的安慰，其实，我累到连药也忘了吃，今天的早餐午餐也是随便抓点什么往嘴里塞，可是当看见国宝一天比一天更有进展，就好；我是时候好好替自己充电了。
最近都熬到很累，想share多一点点也没时间没精神没力气，很容易进入瞌睡状态。但我还是很感恩身边不乏善待我的人，有人陪我挂号看医生，那种感觉是很放心的，那种原来我不是一个可怜人的安慰，其实，我累到连药也忘了吃，今天的早餐午餐也是随便抓点什么往嘴里塞，可是当看见国宝一天比一天更有进展，就好；我是时候好好替自己充电了。
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
无言以对。莫明奇妙
“孩子啊~你一定要站起来哦~你再赖在地上爬来爬去，你就不会平衡站啰！孩子啊~尿片在这，你自己要懂怎样换哟，不然，拉臭臭了你就自己爬去那边自己拿自己换，最好你会自己赚钱自己买！孩子啊，送你电脑辞典一部，没事做就自己学字学听学读学写字吧，自修的孩子最乖巧呢！”-- 无言以对。莫明奇妙
花花草草，你自己双手合十求老天爷下雨给你浇浇水吧~
蛇虫鼠蚁，你自己买毒药自己择时辰吞下吧，我很怕你们呢~
万能多多大马彩，开在我家隔壁吧，我没时间走那么远去买字咧，中头奖要换奖金都嫌远~
朋友，学学那些同胞们一套衣服七日穿吧，打工装而已，能省则省，不换衣又不会扣薪水的~
算了算了，别吃了，总有一天也会老死去，何必酱幸苦去保健呢？
保险供埋供埋，大吉利是，也是益了别人，不买更好，呸！
不如，不如做古人，什么都不用做，看几时海啸一来分分钟升仙当佛。
无言以对。莫明奇妙?????
"变金、变金、变金、变金、变金、变金、变金、变金、变金。。。”
--当今世上真的有能人可以点石成金？？
花花草草，你自己双手合十求老天爷下雨给你浇浇水吧~
蛇虫鼠蚁，你自己买毒药自己择时辰吞下吧，我很怕你们呢~
万能多多大马彩，开在我家隔壁吧，我没时间走那么远去买字咧，中头奖要换奖金都嫌远~
朋友，学学那些同胞们一套衣服七日穿吧，打工装而已，能省则省，不换衣又不会扣薪水的~
算了算了，别吃了，总有一天也会老死去，何必酱幸苦去保健呢？
保险供埋供埋，大吉利是，也是益了别人，不买更好，呸！
不如，不如做古人，什么都不用做，看几时海啸一来分分钟升仙当佛。
无言以对。莫明奇妙?????
"变金、变金、变金、变金、变金、变金、变金、变金、变金。。。”
--当今世上真的有能人可以点石成金？？
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
默默
我只想做我觉得对的事情。
对，或不对，你做不来，就请你静静，
对，或不对，你帮不上忙，你就别批评。
我默默地去做，你就闭嘴别来打扰我的思绪。
我只想在对的时间 对症下药。
天底下鲜有‘着数’这回事，要不你是傻子，要不那人是傻子，做人还是凭良心 尽力而为吧，算死草这看家本领不是我蜂人的所作所为，我不会算，除了默默地做默默地看默默地等，我也只好默默地忍受一切。改变自己总比改变别的人与事来得容易 简单。
对，或不对，你做不来，就请你静静，
对，或不对，你帮不上忙，你就别批评。
我默默地去做，你就闭嘴别来打扰我的思绪。
我只想在对的时间 对症下药。
天底下鲜有‘着数’这回事，要不你是傻子，要不那人是傻子，做人还是凭良心 尽力而为吧，算死草这看家本领不是我蜂人的所作所为，我不会算，除了默默地做默默地看默默地等，我也只好默默地忍受一切。改变自己总比改变别的人与事来得容易 简单。
Monday, April 11, 2011
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Saturday, April 9, 2011
To Endure, I can't, but have to.
Some facts, I can't endure anylonger anymore...
小时候的记忆，我想，最早期应该在三、四岁那年开始，依稀记得自己是不碰牛奶的，就只喝美绿，完全没办法想起当初怎么学走路 什么时候开始跑跑跳跳 也不知道那时跌倒了谁把我扶起来 尿尿到底是用传统尿布还是束裤纸尿片，但我记得4岁那年我是怎么学习乘法表，我也记得6岁那年失踪后自己是如何镇定地寻找办法，然后就是幼稚园的毕业庆典表演，然后就上小学，从没记忆到有记忆的成长，那是一门独有的家教训练，很老土的一句：我们一出生到这世上来，我们不会走不会跳不懂语言不懂判断，一切都是“被训练”出来的。我今天怎么做人，就是当初我怎么被训练的。一个人走得直不直，站得正不正，思路清不清，有赖调教他的人，就算先天不足，后天还是会遇上某某伯乐或恩师的，再幸运的 会遇上能互补不足的另一半，这是福气。
倘若有一天我不再会走路，请用调教baby的方式来引导我，假如我听不明指示，请先教会我你用的语言，如果你爱我的话，请别假手于别人，我只是在跑一场意志力马拉松，我的编号不叫负担。
小时候的记忆，我想，最早期应该在三、四岁那年开始，依稀记得自己是不碰牛奶的，就只喝美绿，完全没办法想起当初怎么学走路 什么时候开始跑跑跳跳 也不知道那时跌倒了谁把我扶起来 尿尿到底是用传统尿布还是束裤纸尿片，但我记得4岁那年我是怎么学习乘法表，我也记得6岁那年失踪后自己是如何镇定地寻找办法，然后就是幼稚园的毕业庆典表演，然后就上小学，从没记忆到有记忆的成长，那是一门独有的家教训练，很老土的一句：我们一出生到这世上来，我们不会走不会跳不懂语言不懂判断，一切都是“被训练”出来的。我今天怎么做人，就是当初我怎么被训练的。一个人走得直不直，站得正不正，思路清不清，有赖调教他的人，就算先天不足，后天还是会遇上某某伯乐或恩师的，再幸运的 会遇上能互补不足的另一半，这是福气。
倘若有一天我不再会走路，请用调教baby的方式来引导我，假如我听不明指示，请先教会我你用的语言，如果你爱我的话，请别假手于别人，我只是在跑一场意志力马拉松，我的编号不叫负担。
Friday, April 8, 2011
终于
终于有睡眠不足的feel 了。
喉咙干干的，有点咳嗽，是热气吧，下巴多了一粒硬硬的暗疮，双眼多了两个圈圈，两个肩膀像不锈钢锅那样又硬又厚又重，晚餐吃了一顿又另一顿，我知道我的真身回来了，心里头多了一份安心，这是天赐的福气，来来回回奔奔波波又担心又忧虑顾左顾右顾前顾后的日子换来哭笑不得的一幕幕，原来等待也是一种福气。
终于这一晚，没有Popeye的按摩也能熟睡。
我唱了无数遍：爱是恒久忍耐又有恩慈，爱是不嫉妒，爱是不自夸不张狂，不做害羞的事，不求自己的益处，不轻易发怒，不计算人家的恶，不喜欢不义只喜欢真理，凡事包容凡事相信凡事盼望凡事忍耐，爱是永不止息。
喉咙干干的，有点咳嗽，是热气吧，下巴多了一粒硬硬的暗疮，双眼多了两个圈圈，两个肩膀像不锈钢锅那样又硬又厚又重，晚餐吃了一顿又另一顿，我知道我的真身回来了，心里头多了一份安心，这是天赐的福气，来来回回奔奔波波又担心又忧虑顾左顾右顾前顾后的日子换来哭笑不得的一幕幕，原来等待也是一种福气。
终于这一晚，没有Popeye的按摩也能熟睡。
我唱了无数遍：爱是恒久忍耐又有恩慈，爱是不嫉妒，爱是不自夸不张狂，不做害羞的事，不求自己的益处，不轻易发怒，不计算人家的恶，不喜欢不义只喜欢真理，凡事包容凡事相信凡事盼望凡事忍耐，爱是永不止息。
As an Industrial Engineer...
Capacity planning is the process of determining the production capacity needed by an organization to meet changing demands for its products.[1] In the context of capacity planning, "capacity" is the maximum amount of work that an organization is capable of completing in a given period of time. The phrase is also used in business computing as a synonym for Capacity Management
A discrepancy between the capacity of an organization and the demands of its customers results in inefficiency, either in under-utilized resources or unfulfilled customers. The goal of capacity planning is to minimize this discrepancy. Demand for an organization's capacity varies based on changes in production output, such as increasing or decreasing the production quantity of an existing product, or producing new products. Better utilization of existing capacity can be accomplished through improvements in overall equipment effectiveness (OEE). Capacity can be increased through introducing new techniques, equipment and materials, increasing the number of workers or machines, increasing the number of shifts, or acquiring additional production facilities.
Capacity is calculated: (number of machines or workers) × (number of shifts) × (utilization) × (efficiency).
A discrepancy between the capacity of an organization and the demands of its customers results in inefficiency, either in under-utilized resources or unfulfilled customers. The goal of capacity planning is to minimize this discrepancy. Demand for an organization's capacity varies based on changes in production output, such as increasing or decreasing the production quantity of an existing product, or producing new products. Better utilization of existing capacity can be accomplished through improvements in overall equipment effectiveness (OEE). Capacity can be increased through introducing new techniques, equipment and materials, increasing the number of workers or machines, increasing the number of shifts, or acquiring additional production facilities.
Capacity is calculated: (number of machines or workers) × (number of shifts) × (utilization) × (efficiency).
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
101 Miracles
Plant Faith
Water with Love
Fertilize with Confidence
Miracles are the fruits
where family members are the branches
Thanks GOD provided the Seed a chance to live n to grow~
Life is such a Miracle but health is not granted.
开心的眼泪一点也不咸，太神奇太不可思议了，早上淘叔叔才转告我，师父说国宝将会-走得跑得- 下午那通电话就报喜讯了，第101天，终于守得云开见月明！
Water with Love
Fertilize with Confidence
Miracles are the fruits
where family members are the branches
Thanks GOD provided the Seed a chance to live n to grow~
Life is such a Miracle but health is not granted.
开心的眼泪一点也不咸，太神奇太不可思议了，早上淘叔叔才转告我，师父说国宝将会-走得跑得- 下午那通电话就报喜讯了，第101天，终于守得云开见月明！
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Happiest!!!
往那人间地狱C10-14绕了一圈，世界末日似的渡过了5个小时，看见国宝一脸的恐慌与不知所措，我快崩溃了。漏夜潜逃出来才后知后觉地发现钱的魔力，钱的万能，和人性的丑陋。谁说好马不吃回头草？好草才不怕回头吃呢，甚至还怕吃不着吃不及呢。
往地狱绕了一圈回来，我在天堂看见神迹。我在天堂嗅到浓浓人情味，白衣天使欢乐地告诉我神迹！遇见了Worst，前路就只能看见Better了，那本能的意志力，欠缺一点点的信心鼓励也不能成事，抹了国宝的眼泪，抹不掉我心如刀割的痛，看见努力把身体撑起来的那股劲，感谢神，感谢所有看顾他的，感谢所有庇佑他的，感谢帮助我们的天使们，亲人的支持更胜一切，这就是血浓于水的奥妙。何谓feeling good? - 不是happy, 不是satisfied, 是Happiest!! 这时刻，还计较语文语法么？哈！
往地狱绕了一圈回来，我在天堂看见神迹。我在天堂嗅到浓浓人情味，白衣天使欢乐地告诉我神迹！遇见了Worst，前路就只能看见Better了，那本能的意志力，欠缺一点点的信心鼓励也不能成事，抹了国宝的眼泪，抹不掉我心如刀割的痛，看见努力把身体撑起来的那股劲，感谢神，感谢所有看顾他的，感谢所有庇佑他的，感谢帮助我们的天使们，亲人的支持更胜一切，这就是血浓于水的奥妙。何谓feeling good? - 不是happy, 不是satisfied, 是Happiest!! 这时刻，还计较语文语法么？哈！
Monday, April 4, 2011
BreakEven
Be thankful. Have faith. Believe in miracles and believe in ourselves. Love others the way you wish to be loved. Respect them just how you wish to be respected. and, Say it~ I LOVE YOU.
American Idol 2011 Chris Medina Fiance Has Brain Damage and Sings His Heart Break Even For her
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven
Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no
What am I suppose to do
When the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no
I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)
You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh
'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name
American Idol 2011 Chris Medina Fiance Has Brain Damage and Sings His Heart Break Even For her
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven
Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no
What am I suppose to do
When the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no
I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)
You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh
'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name
Sunday, April 3, 2011
第98天
凌晨4点就醒了，眼睛是疲累的，但还是得撑开，98天了，我的确看见神迹，伤口的复原是可观的，不能再贪心奢求了，撑到今天已经是很不容易的事了，4个月前，我还兴高采烈地在等待我难得安排的星加坡之旅，当然也非常期待我的吴哥窑之旅，因为叶威明风水师说我的八字今年会有好多到国外的机会，旅行也会带来更多的好运气。我们不止一次的尝试编排到台湾的行程，但往往就是一年拖一年，一年又一年的把它耽搁了，现在，能陪他看看电视播出的美食节目和世界奇观，我已经很感恩了。凌晨的对白，我重新把入院到手术后的细节慢慢地告诉国宝，他都记不起了，多好，何必沉溺在痛苦的经验呢？人，总得往前看，往以后的日子努力，收在我里面的，不开心的，生气的，后悔的，自责的，怀疑的，懊恼的，无助的，沮丧的，感恩的，激动的，我没办法delete，这几个月让我上了人生很大很大很艰难的课，这堂课还没敲钟下堂呢！我会在什么时候 毕业下堂呢？神对我的考验，能顺利过关么？
孙医生说：Have Faith! Always Have Faith! - 谢谢。一两句激励的话是很powerful 的，它让我无惧地继续我该担当的。
100天后，我不胆小了。200 天后，一切都能如愿么？
--我晓得 时间如雪 有时候会覆盖一切
孙医生说：Have Faith! Always Have Faith! - 谢谢。一两句激励的话是很powerful 的，它让我无惧地继续我该担当的。
100天后，我不胆小了。200 天后，一切都能如愿么？
--我晓得 时间如雪 有时候会覆盖一切
Friday, April 1, 2011
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Simpson.My.Angel
God has been really good to me, God sent me another angel, to read 1-2-3 with me, and also to do 1+2+3 with me, that's always my luck... to be surrounded by angels, luvly one~ charming one~ unselfish one~
God also arranged a wonderful shelter for Belle. God knows my toughtime, God listened to my prayers, God made miracles happened. And so, I'll keep praying hard..... I can't wait to see miracles happen on ME, I just have too many wishes... I'm a demanding daughter to him~
I'm waiting for my mushroom to grow me like SuperMario... bigger n bigger, stronger n stronger, more n more mushrooms. more n more gold coins for me~ :-)
God also arranged a wonderful shelter for Belle. God knows my toughtime, God listened to my prayers, God made miracles happened. And so, I'll keep praying hard..... I can't wait to see miracles happen on ME, I just have too many wishes... I'm a demanding daughter to him~
I'm waiting for my mushroom to grow me like SuperMario... bigger n bigger, stronger n stronger, more n more mushrooms. more n more gold coins for me~ :-)
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Monday, March 28, 2011
有得选择的话。。。
在有选择能力的情况下，任谁也想当那个做抉择的人，谁会自愿放弃选择的权力呢？
你会想要-选你所想择你所要-的 还是希望一切都被违愿安排呢？亲人，我们没得选，天注定的血缘，我们只好接受，那~身外物呢？另一半呢？工作呢？前途呢？健康的体魄？退休后的生活呢？下一代的续缘呢？我们所追求的物质，我们暗恋的对象，我们期待的dreamhouse，我们渴望的奢侈，最后，只能说一句：己所不欲，勿施于人。你，可以选择不要，但请你别随意施舍。你，可以任意做决定，但请你别忽略前因后果。你，可以爱，可以不爱，但请别留下悔恨，你也可以大大方方当个笨傻瓜，但别天真的认为聪敏的我是又聋又盲又哑巴，我是会生气的，我生气的时候，如果有得选择的话，我会希望任吃不肥，越吃越苗条，嘴巴塞满了食物就不必生别人的气了。
闷气，有得选的话，我想重来。
你会想要-选你所想择你所要-的 还是希望一切都被违愿安排呢？亲人，我们没得选，天注定的血缘，我们只好接受，那~身外物呢？另一半呢？工作呢？前途呢？健康的体魄？退休后的生活呢？下一代的续缘呢？我们所追求的物质，我们暗恋的对象，我们期待的dreamhouse，我们渴望的奢侈，最后，只能说一句：己所不欲，勿施于人。你，可以选择不要，但请你别随意施舍。你，可以任意做决定，但请你别忽略前因后果。你，可以爱，可以不爱，但请别留下悔恨，你也可以大大方方当个笨傻瓜，但别天真的认为聪敏的我是又聋又盲又哑巴，我是会生气的，我生气的时候，如果有得选择的话，我会希望任吃不肥，越吃越苗条，嘴巴塞满了食物就不必生别人的气了。
闷气，有得选的话，我想重来。
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Quote9
"You have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future.
You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever.
This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life."
- Steve Jobs
EXACTLY!
You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever.
This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life."
- Steve Jobs
EXACTLY!
亲情
是信任
是支持
是爱护
是忍耐
是后盾
是捍卫
是原谅
是安慰
是包容 是包涵
是血脉相连 血浓于水 无限付出
不计算 不记仇 不回避 不求回报
只求安心
只求团聚
我还是那句：人在做，天在看，天知地知你知我知他也会知。
（后注：朋友的亲人的无限帮忙，是会幸运地中字的！）
是支持
是爱护
是忍耐
是后盾
是捍卫
是原谅
是安慰
是包容 是包涵
是血脉相连 血浓于水 无限付出
不计算 不记仇 不回避 不求回报
只求安心
只求团聚
我还是那句：人在做，天在看，天知地知你知我知他也会知。
（后注：朋友的亲人的无限帮忙，是会幸运地中字的！）
Saturday, March 26, 2011
我的新志愿
假如我是心理学家，事情会不会容易办得多呢？
要揣摩情绪病，本身的情绪控制就是一门学问了，原本的我是那么的情绪化那么的不知所措那么的急需精神与心灵上的支援，但神给了我考验，艰难的，感觉上我变成了柯楠，日日夜夜都在侦查情绪病的根源，到底--答案在哪里？
要揣摩情绪病，本身的情绪控制就是一门学问了，原本的我是那么的情绪化那么的不知所措那么的急需精神与心灵上的支援，但神给了我考验，艰难的，感觉上我变成了柯楠，日日夜夜都在侦查情绪病的根源，到底--答案在哪里？
Friday, March 25, 2011
MaquiJuice
MaquiJuice@RM117 - Miracle Juice? nah... yet to read such an outbreaking news, but I won't mind to spend a little money to 'research' just a little bit more on it, yup~ that's me: Never Try Never Know... and I wanna experience it so I could tell the 'results', then I shall able to SHOUT it out LOUD: Shoooooooo... you all nonsense products Shooooooooooooooo!! BUT, if this line 'these statements have not been evaluated by the FDA...' is giving me just another detox-juice, spending a little for now to avoid more friends being cheated --> Worth it still.
Another Friday nite with a lovely visitor, always my great listener :-)
How many more Fridays I gotto be here? GOD... please guide me.
Another Friday nite with a lovely visitor, always my great listener :-)
How many more Fridays I gotto be here? GOD... please guide me.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Frenz Are To Call, Not To Bore
So, I'm the lucky one.
Oh yeah... I found my keys, I found the spares too. I've got someone many ones to help me out. You know what? it's very true~ friends are for you to call, to call up to check their status, to call up to check if they need help,to call up for food for games for leisure, to call them up when you need help & attention. How many friends on your cellphone address book? do you really call them up often? perhaps I should ask: Do you care to make a greeting call to your frenz for a casual chat? I care. Do call me, not to bore.
Oh yeah... I found my keys, I found the spares too. I've got someone many ones to help me out. You know what? it's very true~ friends are for you to call, to call up to check their status, to call up to check if they need help,to call up for food for games for leisure, to call them up when you need help & attention. How many friends on your cellphone address book? do you really call them up often? perhaps I should ask: Do you care to make a greeting call to your frenz for a casual chat? I care. Do call me, not to bore.
Disturbance
Ooohhh... what a miserable day!
2 days ago, failed to renew the roadtax and realized there's a blacklisted-summons on-hold.
yesterday, the CRV battery was dead without any symptoms. well~ can't blaim much, it's my fault that I never maintain any car. and the Waja also didn't really perform well in the heavy rain last nite, but thanks God, I reached my destiny safely. I was praying hard to have the power windows functioning as normal, thanks God again, they did.
This morning, I was so ready to call somebody to bring in a new battery for the CRV, but the car keys gone in the wind... so, what's next? how worse it can go? I don't know...
2 days ago, failed to renew the roadtax and realized there's a blacklisted-summons on-hold.
yesterday, the CRV battery was dead without any symptoms. well~ can't blaim much, it's my fault that I never maintain any car. and the Waja also didn't really perform well in the heavy rain last nite, but thanks God, I reached my destiny safely. I was praying hard to have the power windows functioning as normal, thanks God again, they did.
This morning, I was so ready to call somebody to bring in a new battery for the CRV, but the car keys gone in the wind... so, what's next? how worse it can go? I don't know...
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
阻力令我沮丧
我承认，我不会替车子轮胎充气。笨吗？
搞到十个手指头都脏兮兮的，才惊觉自己是在替轮胎放风，原想证明自己是能克服一切的难题，却连这么简单的琐事都搞不定，只能怪怕事的自己太太太依赖他了，想尽办法自助的时候真的很沮丧。
（再续）
搞到十个手指头都脏兮兮的，才惊觉自己是在替轮胎放风，原想证明自己是能克服一切的难题，却连这么简单的琐事都搞不定，只能怪怕事的自己太太太依赖他了，想尽办法自助的时候真的很沮丧。
（再续）
Monday, March 21, 2011
爆了
今天心情超低落，不受控的，感觉到我的小宇宙有被炸开了一角，心灵疲惫，很孤军作战子弹也没的无助，眼珠也有爆开的感觉，头昏脑涨，咖啡喝了一杯又一杯，麻烦的事就一桩接一桩，不顺意的事情都像约好一起来的，难到今天不利巨蟹座么？
看见国宝右手握住我左手呼噜睡去，我知道我按摩的功夫不是盖的，但我能把强悍的他按醒吗？我愿意。
看见国宝右手握住我左手呼噜睡去，我知道我按摩的功夫不是盖的，但我能把强悍的他按醒吗？我愿意。
Sunday, March 20, 2011
玉兰肥鸡
一路上雨不停，碰上好几单车祸，赶到医院都很晚了，赶紧把玉兰肥鸡端上，国宝开心大笑，一眼就把适苑的招牌玉兰肥鸡叫出来了，让他吃了几口，心情大好，每张照片里的佳肴他都是那么地熟悉。。。看见了泪光，真的很难受。曾经，好多年前，我不悦地对国宝说：“为什么你就爱吃粗粗干干的鸡胸肉？嫩嫩的鸡腿才好吃呢!我们的喜爱怎么不一样？”国宝这么告诉我：“这才是我们最-夹-的地方，不管一只还是半只鸡，总之一盘鸡来到，我吃鸡胸肉，鸡腿都留给你，不必吵也不必争，刚刚好。”我真的好后悔，我真的很自责，我真的错了，我都错过了。
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
~Swing~Swing~Swing~
Someone said it me today: it's been long you didn't update your blog!
wow~ since when? since when you guys are anticipating for my post? or, you're just waiting for more juicy gossips? well~ I always see myself a very adaptive person until my buddy told me that's called resilient, so, my mood swing with my close ones. When he's anxious, me too. When he sleepless, me too. When he fart, i fart louder, and I thank God that I can still fart out loud. Recently, his appetite improved, me too. Seeing him losing that much of weight, you should noticed that I'm absorbing those kgs.
Back to the ward, weirdo everywhere everyday.
Don't they realized the THINGS they took/used are not supposed to be shared? Can't they hang their undies somewhere else? should I beg them to keep the toilet rolls INSIDE the toilet? worst, ain't they here to take care or accompany the patient? why are they so kepor about eyeing on the neighbor? @.@
Why can't they just keep those Q&A funtime with their doctors? Do I look like an artist waiting for interviews?
wow~ since when? since when you guys are anticipating for my post? or, you're just waiting for more juicy gossips? well~ I always see myself a very adaptive person until my buddy told me that's called resilient, so, my mood swing with my close ones. When he's anxious, me too. When he sleepless, me too. When he fart, i fart louder, and I thank God that I can still fart out loud. Recently, his appetite improved, me too. Seeing him losing that much of weight, you should noticed that I'm absorbing those kgs.
Back to the ward, weirdo everywhere everyday.
Don't they realized the THINGS they took/used are not supposed to be shared? Can't they hang their undies somewhere else? should I beg them to keep the toilet rolls INSIDE the toilet? worst, ain't they here to take care or accompany the patient? why are they so kepor about eyeing on the neighbor? @.@
Why can't they just keep those Q&A funtime with their doctors? Do I look like an artist waiting for interviews?
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Have A Break!
Oh Yes. Everyone needs a break. I need a break too. Gimme A Break.
-PEACE-
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Great. Finally everyone is taking a break now. NO VISITOR.
and finally I'm home, lights' on, TV's on, Aircon's on, fan's on, sleepless nite.
when I woke up in the morning, I could feel my puffy eyes hanging on my restless brain.
What a break.
------- ---------- ------------ ----- -------- ----------- ----
It'a sunny sunday today. 雨过天晴.
-PEACE-
------- ---------- ------------ ----- -------- ----------- ----
Great. Finally everyone is taking a break now. NO VISITOR.
and finally I'm home, lights' on, TV's on, Aircon's on, fan's on, sleepless nite.
when I woke up in the morning, I could feel my puffy eyes hanging on my restless brain.
What a break.
------- ---------- ------------ ----- -------- ----------- ----
It'a sunny sunday today. 雨过天晴.
Saturday, March 12, 2011
人非草木
我生气了。
我在这边不停地替他人着想，很想减轻他们的负担，想让大家各忙各的，但事情发展到今天，实在太不如我意了，你跟我说你累，你累什么累呢？我都把担子扛起来了，你还敢说累？！还敢说什么我也已经很累 我应该回家休息，拜托，我就是因为你说帮忙帮到累了，要我把它们解决掉，我才每天来回岛与岛之间，阿姨们也别再问为什么我这么晚才到医院了，我的原因就是因为：他们不扛的，我扛。你们来到病房，就只有不停的问：为什么没做这个 为什么没给那个 医生说什么 为什么这里会这样 为什么那里是酱的 为什么食物吃不完 为什么这这这？为什么那那那？ 天啊！！！ 你像我一样的做多一点点 探他多一点点 陪他久一点再学如何从病人的角度去想他要的是什么，你会找到答案的。假如有一天我遇状况了，不同宗教信仰的你，会为我向主耶稣祷告么？你会为我翻开圣经唱爱的箴言么？当你在说-为他好-这三个字的时候，我真心希望那都是从他的出发点去想。
为他，我一定点也不累，我该怕的都不怕了，看见他我就安心，任他发脾气什么的我也不在乎，因为我有更重要的目标，就是要他开心的活下去，他值得他曾经所拥有的。我会累，是因为我要应对的人与事，太煎熬我的思绪了，神又在考验我了，我需要更多的智慧和能量去抵挡那些煎熬我的对白 和解决那些他们帮不上忙的事，我也感激上天对我的看顾，我总有谅解我的朋友 谅解我的同事 谅解我的家人 还有谅解我的自己。你们不会明白，那么多在谅解我帮忙我和聆听我的朋友，其实都在帮了你们许许多多，没有这些天使们，我也没办法去扛你们扛不了的。
别再低估我的能量小宇宙了，我只要你想，想一想：“换成是我，我要我的亲人爱人怎么样？” （认真的想一想吧）
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Yes, I am angry.
Just less than 3 months, and you're telling me you are tired, yet, you kept mentioning to me that you're gonna do things that's good for "long-term". What is LONG TERM now?
I never deny your intention, I know all of us trying our best for him, but can we not to set the limit other than the dollars? You all asking me to STOP, REST, and RELAX, have you ever ask me if these are what I need now? I need to force myself to go "somewhere" to pretend I'm resting so you all could FEEL I am relax, and that ADD whole lots of burden to me. You told me you could HELP to take care the empty house and dogs, and now you told me you already got tired and wanted me to "settle" them, THEN please don't offer help, indeed, I will goto work everyday, meet my nice friends and colleagues everyday, and yet, i go home take care the dogs everyday, and i can still come back to the ward to see him and take care of him. I'm not superwoman, I'm not heroin, I'm not doing charity here, I'm doing things that I know he wants me to do even though he very very very sorry to add burden on me.
I want to say: it's our 8th years now, I never got tired to share my life with him, but I am now truly tired to talk to you all just to hope you all could understand me and him a little bit more. Please don't put words into my mouth, and don't stuff thoughts into my mind.
I will leave if that's all he wants from me.
I may rest as you wish if anyone of you could take over my role.
我在这边不停地替他人着想，很想减轻他们的负担，想让大家各忙各的，但事情发展到今天，实在太不如我意了，你跟我说你累，你累什么累呢？我都把担子扛起来了，你还敢说累？！还敢说什么我也已经很累 我应该回家休息，拜托，我就是因为你说帮忙帮到累了，要我把它们解决掉，我才每天来回岛与岛之间，阿姨们也别再问为什么我这么晚才到医院了，我的原因就是因为：他们不扛的，我扛。你们来到病房，就只有不停的问：为什么没做这个 为什么没给那个 医生说什么 为什么这里会这样 为什么那里是酱的 为什么食物吃不完 为什么这这这？为什么那那那？ 天啊！！！ 你像我一样的做多一点点 探他多一点点 陪他久一点再学如何从病人的角度去想他要的是什么，你会找到答案的。假如有一天我遇状况了，不同宗教信仰的你，会为我向主耶稣祷告么？你会为我翻开圣经唱爱的箴言么？当你在说-为他好-这三个字的时候，我真心希望那都是从他的出发点去想。
为他，我一定点也不累，我该怕的都不怕了，看见他我就安心，任他发脾气什么的我也不在乎，因为我有更重要的目标，就是要他开心的活下去，他值得他曾经所拥有的。我会累，是因为我要应对的人与事，太煎熬我的思绪了，神又在考验我了，我需要更多的智慧和能量去抵挡那些煎熬我的对白 和解决那些他们帮不上忙的事，我也感激上天对我的看顾，我总有谅解我的朋友 谅解我的同事 谅解我的家人 还有谅解我的自己。你们不会明白，那么多在谅解我帮忙我和聆听我的朋友，其实都在帮了你们许许多多，没有这些天使们，我也没办法去扛你们扛不了的。
别再低估我的能量小宇宙了，我只要你想，想一想：“换成是我，我要我的亲人爱人怎么样？” （认真的想一想吧）
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Yes, I am angry.
Just less than 3 months, and you're telling me you are tired, yet, you kept mentioning to me that you're gonna do things that's good for "long-term". What is LONG TERM now?
I never deny your intention, I know all of us trying our best for him, but can we not to set the limit other than the dollars? You all asking me to STOP, REST, and RELAX, have you ever ask me if these are what I need now? I need to force myself to go "somewhere" to pretend I'm resting so you all could FEEL I am relax, and that ADD whole lots of burden to me. You told me you could HELP to take care the empty house and dogs, and now you told me you already got tired and wanted me to "settle" them, THEN please don't offer help, indeed, I will goto work everyday, meet my nice friends and colleagues everyday, and yet, i go home take care the dogs everyday, and i can still come back to the ward to see him and take care of him. I'm not superwoman, I'm not heroin, I'm not doing charity here, I'm doing things that I know he wants me to do even though he very very very sorry to add burden on me.
I want to say: it's our 8th years now, I never got tired to share my life with him, but I am now truly tired to talk to you all just to hope you all could understand me and him a little bit more. Please don't put words into my mouth, and don't stuff thoughts into my mind.
I will leave if that's all he wants from me.
I may rest as you wish if anyone of you could take over my role.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
我的近况
最近，我凌晨5点就起身了，上班前的功夫还蛮多的，拜拜后还要替国宝推拿按摩松筋骨，还来得极喂早点和草莓口味的spirulina。到新办公室上班的途中，总会有点塞车，正好让我有丁点私人时间边听收音机边吃三文治。这又隐蔽又装神秘的办公室让我无时无刻都有卧虎藏龙的感觉，大开眼界。我，又有新的姿态了，这次我想让自己看起来更有专业的味道，只好随波逐浪了，只要吃力后不会不讨好，我也很乐意去伪装。
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
609号房
昨晚，身在609号房，我并不太敢把事情的来龙去脉写在部落格，总担心有什么的躲在身后，有种心虚的感觉。其实，昨天凌晨电视机的白光雪花我是看得一清二楚的，荧幕右下角的“9”特别清楚，那感觉很清晰，我是肯定地清醒，还不止一次呢！然后，它就“自动地”被关上了，我的心当场寒一寒，还得装没事的深沉入睡，噢~为什么让我遇上这回事？
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
今晚，天天天晴。
离开，需要勇气。
留下，需要智慧。
相识，需要缘分。
相爱，需要包容与信任。
己所不欲，勿施于人。我真心希望我和大家都能在自己能力范围以内为身边的人多多着想，也想想自己每天睡醒开始新的一天，你幢憬的生活是什么画面？
To leave, needs the courage.
To stay, needs the winsdom.
To meet and to know each other, needs the fate.
To love and to be loved, needs tolerance and trust.
Don't do unto others what you don't want others do unto you.
- Tonite, I posted this note in my facebook wall: - is breathing that's all for living?? what if one day you woke up and found yourself at a different place, in a different house, pets lost, money gone, loved one no longer there, nothing belongs to you, only you, breathing...... what kind of life is that?
留下，需要智慧。
相识，需要缘分。
相爱，需要包容与信任。
己所不欲，勿施于人。我真心希望我和大家都能在自己能力范围以内为身边的人多多着想，也想想自己每天睡醒开始新的一天，你幢憬的生活是什么画面？
To leave, needs the courage.
To stay, needs the winsdom.
To meet and to know each other, needs the fate.
To love and to be loved, needs tolerance and trust.
Don't do unto others what you don't want others do unto you.
- Tonite, I posted this note in my facebook wall: - is breathing that's all for living?? what if one day you woke up and found yourself at a different place, in a different house, pets lost, money gone, loved one no longer there, nothing belongs to you, only you, breathing...... what kind of life is that?
别让
当我将要进入极度害怕的时刻
我却本能地将害怕转化为保护的力量
我必当尽力去抵挡那恶的
我必尽全能去维护我爱的
这一切天降的勇气全赖-无悔的心-
这个凌晨锻炼了我的决心和面对的勇气
这个经历让我坚固了自己的信念
那个假镇定的恐惧肯定了我的价值
原来，我的极限又夸多一步了!
不想再有“早知道，就 ”的话就别自作聪明自作主张自私自我自寻烦恼，也别让自己只拥有自己，那将会很孤单。
我却本能地将害怕转化为保护的力量
我必当尽力去抵挡那恶的
我必尽全能去维护我爱的
这一切天降的勇气全赖-无悔的心-
这个凌晨锻炼了我的决心和面对的勇气
这个经历让我坚固了自己的信念
那个假镇定的恐惧肯定了我的价值
原来，我的极限又夸多一步了!
不想再有“早知道，就 ”的话就别自作聪明自作主张自私自我自寻烦恼，也别让自己只拥有自己，那将会很孤单。
Monday, March 7, 2011
精明的第一天
人生有起有伏
心情有好有坏
事业有起有落
咪咪有大有小
想不到驾车也有左右分叉路
第一天，就左右不分取错道了
第一天正正式式正正经经整整齐齐认认真真地早睡早起
还是敌不过太认真又心不在焉的那瞬间
我就像抛物线那样远离了Coastal Highway往咸蛋黄驶去。
好好笑吧~精明的我竟然败给blurblur的我。
心情有好有坏
事业有起有落
咪咪有大有小
想不到驾车也有左右分叉路
第一天，就左右不分取错道了
第一天正正式式正正经经整整齐齐认认真真地早睡早起
还是敌不过太认真又心不在焉的那瞬间
我就像抛物线那样远离了Coastal Highway往咸蛋黄驶去。
好好笑吧~精明的我竟然败给blurblur的我。
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Thursday, March 3, 2011
当蜂人遇上疯38--
--有你好看!!
一切预料中事，离开岗位之前必定遭受无法理喻的小家舌功，东百句，西千句，南北各万句，小家男小家女都38得不亦乐乎，真是-家家有堆能人所不能的cheap精-。
I never aim to snatch anything from you, so please don't over estimate yourself, you've got nothing worth my attention other than your stupidity. How could you treat me like that?! I ain't no thief u know... you don't have to pull back every item and lock them up from me. Afterall, they are just keys that I can't even use them to dig my nose - useless! You have lost my respect to you, and your "curiousity" has also gain you fame-of-naive. So now that I'm leaving... Good Luck to you!
一切预料中事，离开岗位之前必定遭受无法理喻的小家舌功，东百句，西千句，南北各万句，小家男小家女都38得不亦乐乎，真是-家家有堆能人所不能的cheap精-。
I never aim to snatch anything from you, so please don't over estimate yourself, you've got nothing worth my attention other than your stupidity. How could you treat me like that?! I ain't no thief u know... you don't have to pull back every item and lock them up from me. Afterall, they are just keys that I can't even use them to dig my nose - useless! You have lost my respect to you, and your "curiousity" has also gain you fame-of-naive. So now that I'm leaving... Good Luck to you!
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Fistula
It's quite rediculous. I'm the one -Resilient- but I'm not the one suffering from the pain.
Not a good day for me, but still glad that my 555 booklet still there.
---------------Obviously------------------ was very sleepy----------------------------
For the past three days, dd was getting well interms of his mood and temper, I credited it to the DrElton's CD, peaceful nites as well, with laughters. Fistula was done finally, successfully. My laptop win7 upgrade also done, but not very good one. Guess it's not something fancy for a dummy like me, I just want my MSN back, why it's giving me hard time to chat LIVE? *sigh* and now, I can't even recall my password and there's only 2 persons on my Skype list. Good Or Bad???
Not a good day for me, but still glad that my 555 booklet still there.
---------------Obviously------------------ was very sleepy----------------------------
For the past three days, dd was getting well interms of his mood and temper, I credited it to the DrElton's CD, peaceful nites as well, with laughters. Fistula was done finally, successfully. My laptop win7 upgrade also done, but not very good one. Guess it's not something fancy for a dummy like me, I just want my MSN back, why it's giving me hard time to chat LIVE? *sigh* and now, I can't even recall my password and there's only 2 persons on my Skype list. Good Or Bad???
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Laughters~ LOL
The most pleasant thing is to hear someone Laugh Out Loud at my silly jokes. and it happens several times tonite~ :) How often do you bring laughters to people surrounding you? Have you ever care to make a silly face to make them happy? How loud could you laugh? and How loud could you make others laugh like crazy? How much of jokes have you listened to today? if you hear nothing... then, be the one to creates troubles.
Monday, February 28, 2011
Am I Resilience Enough?
Am I Resilience Enough? Here I googled it.....
This is the definition/explanation of it: Psychological Resilience--
"Resilience" in psychology is the positive capacity of people to cope with stress and adversity. This coping may result in the individual “bouncing back” to a previous state of normal functioning, or using the experience of exposure to adversity to produce a “steeling effect” and function better than expected (much like an inoculation gives one the capacity to cope well with future exposure to disease).[1] Resilience is most commonly understood as a process, and not a trait of an individual.[2]
Resilience is defined as a dynamic process that individuals exhibit positive behavioral adaptation when they encounter significant adversity, trauma,[15] tragedy, threats, or even significant sources of stress[16]. It is different from strengths or developmental assets which are a characteristic of an entire population, regardless of the level of adversity they face.
I am no psychologist, I do not know how to interpret my dreams my actions my mind. But 小木子said, Resilience best describe me. I am glad to hear new description other than "good" and "brave" and "strong".
Today is the 1st time for Ironman went tru the process all by himself. I must recommend you to get this CD - A Whole Brain InnerTalk Program by Dr. Eldon Taylor, you can find this from any Popular Bookstore in town, they are selling it for RM139.90. Amazing CD!! and You have to play it over the nite, at least throughout the Zzzz hours to see the effect. If you don't know which one I'm recommending, go google it yourself.
This is the definition/explanation of it: Psychological Resilience--
"Resilience" in psychology is the positive capacity of people to cope with stress and adversity. This coping may result in the individual “bouncing back” to a previous state of normal functioning, or using the experience of exposure to adversity to produce a “steeling effect” and function better than expected (much like an inoculation gives one the capacity to cope well with future exposure to disease).[1] Resilience is most commonly understood as a process, and not a trait of an individual.[2]
Resilience is defined as a dynamic process that individuals exhibit positive behavioral adaptation when they encounter significant adversity, trauma,[15] tragedy, threats, or even significant sources of stress[16]. It is different from strengths or developmental assets which are a characteristic of an entire population, regardless of the level of adversity they face.
I am no psychologist, I do not know how to interpret my dreams my actions my mind. But 小木子said, Resilience best describe me. I am glad to hear new description other than "good" and "brave" and "strong".
Today is the 1st time for Ironman went tru the process all by himself. I must recommend you to get this CD - A Whole Brain InnerTalk Program by Dr. Eldon Taylor, you can find this from any Popular Bookstore in town, they are selling it for RM139.90. Amazing CD!! and You have to play it over the nite, at least throughout the Zzzz hours to see the effect. If you don't know which one I'm recommending, go google it yourself.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Friends Are To Remember, Not Recap
It's been months I didn't meet up with one of my gal friends, and today, she sent her warmest sweetest most lovely message to my facebook:
Saturday, February 26, 2011
1-rice-100-people
一种米养百样人。
还蛮多人的脑，是种草的。
别说古代，当今世上还是有人吃人的族群，吃了，也不会擦擦嘴。
我还常常辅导自己别浪费时间和那些脑袋低等的公司人计较，因为当前有更重要的事情要办妥，但低等动物的繁殖能力通常都很泛滥，它们勇於散播被它们误会误认误以为真的人与事。是与非，真的那么需要高层次的智慧，方能分辨事情的来龙去脉？
还蛮多人的脑，是种草的。
别说古代，当今世上还是有人吃人的族群，吃了，也不会擦擦嘴。
我还常常辅导自己别浪费时间和那些脑袋低等的公司人计较，因为当前有更重要的事情要办妥，但低等动物的繁殖能力通常都很泛滥，它们勇於散播被它们误会误认误以为真的人与事。是与非，真的那么需要高层次的智慧，方能分辨事情的来龙去脉？
CheapSkate in my working place
I google it:
Search Results
miser - a stingy hoarder of money and possessions (often living miserably).
cheapskate - definition of cheapskate by the Free Online ...
Standards everywhere, differently, and I was taught to do things in STANDARDIZED way, and everytime I wanted to work differently with my different opionions, I was told I am wearing the SAME company hat under the SAME big umbrella. Okay~ now that I'm going to move myself to another department, I was told, I am NOT ALLOWED to bring along the LCD Monitor which paid by the current department because it (supposed) possessed by the department.
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm??? So, if the manager who approved the LCD monitor left the department, then I can come back and take it to my new office? Or, perhaps, I can just leave my exisiting laptop in KULIM and get my new boss to BUY me a BRAND NEW laptop in Penang? That sounds great!!! So, Shall I return the notepad I got from the KULIM administrator? What about the stapples-bullets I'm using? Shit! I have to return my calculator? GOSH~ I'm claiming the tolls and broadband services and.... DAMN IT!!! I cannot drive to Penang office to work now... shit. I have so many items I need to return to my manager so I could COME CLEAN to the new department. I never know I'm so SINFUL to have company properties coming along with me to join the new office place.
But it is ALRIGHT! you are not asking my calculator back becoz you think it worth nothing compared to the LCD Monitor... that somehow showed me what's inside your mind.. how narrow it is....and how you value things and ideas.
不是做大事的人，出头天 遥无期.
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm??? So, if the manager who approved the LCD monitor left the department, then I can come back and take it to my new office? Or, perhaps, I can just leave my exisiting laptop in KULIM and get my new boss to BUY me a BRAND NEW laptop in Penang? That sounds great!!! So, Shall I return the notepad I got from the KULIM administrator? What about the stapples-bullets I'm using? Shit! I have to return my calculator? GOSH~ I'm claiming the tolls and broadband services and.... DAMN IT!!! I cannot drive to Penang office to work now... shit. I have so many items I need to return to my manager so I could COME CLEAN to the new department. I never know I'm so SINFUL to have company properties coming along with me to join the new office place.
But it is ALRIGHT! you are not asking my calculator back becoz you think it worth nothing compared to the LCD Monitor... that somehow showed me what's inside your mind.. how narrow it is....and how you value things and ideas.
不是做大事的人，出头天 遥无期.
Friday, February 25, 2011
BeWiseBee
No matter how strong we could be, there're always times we need people to remind us to cheer us to pull us back on track. When I opened up my inbox, my eyes caught this forwarded mail, my maid sent me this short message:
A wise man once sat in the audience & cracked a joke. All laughed like crazy. After a moment he cracked the same joke again and a little less people laughed this time. He cracked the same joke again & again, when there was no laughter in the crowd, he smiled and said: --
"When u can't laugh on the same joke again & again, then why do u keep crying over the same thing over and over again? -- Forget the past & move on… "
A wise man once sat in the audience & cracked a joke. All laughed like crazy. After a moment he cracked the same joke again and a little less people laughed this time. He cracked the same joke again & again, when there was no laughter in the crowd, he smiled and said: --
"When u can't laugh on the same joke again & again, then why do u keep crying over the same thing over and over again? -- Forget the past & move on… "
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Side-By-Side
Glad to see the numbers dropped from peak of 584.4(2/21) down to 298.9(2/24)! It may not be a solution, but as long as it helps, I don't see the reason for not accepting it.
Tonite, my pal shared me this clip: Stand By Me. I'm touched. Hope you like it too~
Life is full of so many unexpected, one needs to learn how to live to its fullest, not foolest.
Tonite, my pal shared me this clip: Stand By Me. I'm touched. Hope you like it too~
Life is full of so many unexpected, one needs to learn how to live to its fullest, not foolest.
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What do you see coming out from me? I do see some silly shit out from those idiots trying so hard to squeeze their balls....
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
You Are Not Alone
Look around, you are not alone.
Cry, there's always shoulders to lean on.
Laugh, there's always friends to share jokes.
Shout, sure there's always someone echo you.
Look around, if you found nobody, love yourself, be true to yourself, talk to yourself, listen to your heart, follow him, he knows you well, he loves you, and thanks God, we are who we are.
Cry, there's always shoulders to lean on.
Laugh, there's always friends to share jokes.
Shout, sure there's always someone echo you.
Look around, if you found nobody, love yourself, be true to yourself, talk to yourself, listen to your heart, follow him, he knows you well, he loves you, and thanks God, we are who we are.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Another Milestone....
A Day To Remember... Have Faith, Be Brave, With Love....To explore, To treasure, To appreciate, To give and To accept. To reach another milestone, we always just need to take the first step out and let God guides us the journey, we came naked, so we got nothing to lose, regardless.
What have you achieved in your life ...so far? Do you measure achievements by career-power? by social prestige? by financial status? by cash on hand? popularity? While WE're fighting hard for our life for our health like a warrior here....there are crazy people out there fighting over each other for fame in press for power for money for prestige:
『分燊歌』：
何家公雞何家猜，
何家等緊何生 Die,
何生 Die 咗何妻 Fly，
.......何妻 High 到 Give me five !
何妻分家唔洗猜，
二奶三奶同一 Line，
大奶四奶唔多 Buy !
何生律師Never Mind，
一於告到何妻 Cry !
大家不如猜一猜，最後邊個會仆街 ? ? ?
What have you achieved in your life ...so far? Do you measure achievements by career-power? by social prestige? by financial status? by cash on hand? popularity? While WE're fighting hard for our life for our health like a warrior here....there are crazy people out there fighting over each other for fame in press for power for money for prestige:
『分燊歌』：
何家公雞何家猜，
何家等緊何生 Die,
何生 Die 咗何妻 Fly，
.......何妻 High 到 Give me five !
何妻分家唔洗猜，
二奶三奶同一 Line，
大奶四奶唔多 Buy !
何生律師Never Mind，
一於告到何妻 Cry !
大家不如猜一猜，最後邊個會仆街 ? ? ?
Monday, February 21, 2011
Frustrated by Annoying Irritations!
Seriously,
I'm the kind of person who can share things openly. I've got no secret to hide from. If I do, those are not secrets as claimed by "normal people", coz, secrets are meant to be discussed by unrelevant KPC (a.k.a Ke-Por-Chi), if I would have anything to hide from my fellow friends, those could be the things that need higher-intelligence to be digested, so make sure you have the brain to READ my mind when I can't TELL - as simple as that.
Fact #1 - I've been staying in pg for almost 2 months; you'd know if you know, if you don't, you shouldn't.
Fact #2 - I'm going to change my jobrole soon reporting to another boss at a different plant joining a totally different group than my current one. you'd know if you know, if you don't, it's just that you are not KPC enough :P
Fact #3 - I'm leaving my current easy job considering to "explore" my brand new career life; you would understand my statement if you understand me well, if you don't, you are just a normal human being. You don't need to feel sick for guessing the wrong reasons.
Stay tuned for more reveals...................... by dunno when.
I'm the kind of person who can share things openly. I've got no secret to hide from. If I do, those are not secrets as claimed by "normal people", coz, secrets are meant to be discussed by unrelevant KPC (a.k.a Ke-Por-Chi), if I would have anything to hide from my fellow friends, those could be the things that need higher-intelligence to be digested, so make sure you have the brain to READ my mind when I can't TELL - as simple as that.
Fact #1 - I've been staying in pg for almost 2 months; you'd know if you know, if you don't, you shouldn't.
Fact #2 - I'm going to change my jobrole soon reporting to another boss at a different plant joining a totally different group than my current one. you'd know if you know, if you don't, it's just that you are not KPC enough :P
Fact #3 - I'm leaving my current easy job considering to "explore" my brand new career life; you would understand my statement if you understand me well, if you don't, you are just a normal human being. You don't need to feel sick for guessing the wrong reasons.
Stay tuned for more reveals...................... by dunno when.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Happiness
I got this eye-catching bookmark from Popular bookstore today:
"Happiness Is Using Our Potential To The Fullest.
Striving Against Difficulties And Overcoming Them.
Reaching Out For Achievements And Finding Them.
We Are Happy When We Are Learning, Growing And Accomplishing.
We Are Happy When We Are Working Towards A Worthwhile Goal That Demands The Best Of Us.
We Are Happy When We Are Helping Others To Succeed Along Life's Journey.
Search For Happiness In Everything You Do!"
It's always my favourite Quote to tell: The most important thing for one's meaningful life is to Be Happy. Only when we are happy, we are satisfied, we are contented, we are appreciating what we have and what we do. Happy doesn't come Free. However, it's priceless. You can't wait for God to send you happiness, you have to make it happen yourself, with zero-cost of course. So why?? why trouble yourself to be in fears? It's just not worth a dime to dwell on sadness. God is not going to pity your tears. It's the BELIEF, belief that holds us strong. Just about a year ago, right before 2010 CNY, my galfren was crying over her "secret-lover" being revealed, it was a big-NO-relationship to be accepted by her parents. I remember I told her :"fren~ your mom is gonna be there as your mom forever, regardless. That guy is the man that going to be there for the rest of your life ONLY IF you insist and believe into the relationship. Don't Give Up!" She then cried, she's not gonna have a peaceful CNY..... oh Well!!! You know what is Make BELIEF?! A year later, yes, Rabbit year, on chap-goh-mei, this couple had their Register Of Marriage with the blessing of parents and family members and all the best wishes from friends, of course, and all the loves from her unselfish hubby. Isn't this the bestest of best testimonial to share?? While I'm blogging this post, my deardear asked what am I doing over here next to his bed... ah ha~ I shared this lovely story to him and asked him not to give up. I read the bookmark to him, just like how we started 8 years ago...... it all started from my attitude of "I don't believe this. I want what I want." - so this was me, this is still me. I would say, I am really a lucky one. There is hardly any barrier in my life that could pull me down. I am always lucky to meet nice people helpful people noble people and plenty of chances. I do think everyone deserve a chance and also a second chance. Life is great, be happy to who we are today, and we shall never give up on hopes. God is watching us, God is really watching us, God will listen, God is listening. If I become blind one day, I don't need any proof to the existance of Sun. Hold our hearts together, that's the place we keep and to grow our beliefs.
Wish you all a Joyful Year!
"Happiness Is Using Our Potential To The Fullest.
Striving Against Difficulties And Overcoming Them.
Reaching Out For Achievements And Finding Them.
We Are Happy When We Are Learning, Growing And Accomplishing.
We Are Happy When We Are Working Towards A Worthwhile Goal That Demands The Best Of Us.
We Are Happy When We Are Helping Others To Succeed Along Life's Journey.
Search For Happiness In Everything You Do!"
It's always my favourite Quote to tell: The most important thing for one's meaningful life is to Be Happy. Only when we are happy, we are satisfied, we are contented, we are appreciating what we have and what we do. Happy doesn't come Free. However, it's priceless. You can't wait for God to send you happiness, you have to make it happen yourself, with zero-cost of course. So why?? why trouble yourself to be in fears? It's just not worth a dime to dwell on sadness. God is not going to pity your tears. It's the BELIEF, belief that holds us strong. Just about a year ago, right before 2010 CNY, my galfren was crying over her "secret-lover" being revealed, it was a big-NO-relationship to be accepted by her parents. I remember I told her :"fren~ your mom is gonna be there as your mom forever, regardless. That guy is the man that going to be there for the rest of your life ONLY IF you insist and believe into the relationship. Don't Give Up!" She then cried, she's not gonna have a peaceful CNY..... oh Well!!! You know what is Make BELIEF?! A year later, yes, Rabbit year, on chap-goh-mei, this couple had their Register Of Marriage with the blessing of parents and family members and all the best wishes from friends, of course, and all the loves from her unselfish hubby. Isn't this the bestest of best testimonial to share?? While I'm blogging this post, my deardear asked what am I doing over here next to his bed... ah ha~ I shared this lovely story to him and asked him not to give up. I read the bookmark to him, just like how we started 8 years ago...... it all started from my attitude of "I don't believe this. I want what I want." - so this was me, this is still me. I would say, I am really a lucky one. There is hardly any barrier in my life that could pull me down. I am always lucky to meet nice people helpful people noble people and plenty of chances. I do think everyone deserve a chance and also a second chance. Life is great, be happy to who we are today, and we shall never give up on hopes. God is watching us, God is really watching us, God will listen, God is listening. If I become blind one day, I don't need any proof to the existance of Sun. Hold our hearts together, that's the place we keep and to grow our beliefs.
Wish you all a Joyful Year!
第56天
在6 楼，晴。也晒。
身边认识的人，有拍胸口的，和不拍胸口的。拍胸口的人，会长翅膀，一边手拿星星棒，一边手按在唇边，静静的，精灵的，头顶发光的，眼睛亮亮的，星星棒一挥~功德无量的事就发生了。不属于拍胸口的人，什么都加个-不-字，但他们都有一颗善良的心，我会祈求神也带领他们一切平安。
最近他的脾气便得很暴躁，甚至会乱吼，是神在考验我的耐心么？不必了，这对我来说一点儿也不算考验，换成是护士们，才不管你心情好不好呢，工照做，屁屁照洗，更何况是我这最亲密不过的了，难不成我掩脸而去么？当年赶我不走，今天你也气我不去，你臭，我可比你更臭！两个人，亲不下去就是要硬斗了。
身边认识的人，有拍胸口的，和不拍胸口的。拍胸口的人，会长翅膀，一边手拿星星棒，一边手按在唇边，静静的，精灵的，头顶发光的，眼睛亮亮的，星星棒一挥~功德无量的事就发生了。不属于拍胸口的人，什么都加个-不-字，但他们都有一颗善良的心，我会祈求神也带领他们一切平安。
最近他的脾气便得很暴躁，甚至会乱吼，是神在考验我的耐心么？不必了，这对我来说一点儿也不算考验，换成是护士们，才不管你心情好不好呢，工照做，屁屁照洗，更何况是我这最亲密不过的了，难不成我掩脸而去么？当年赶我不走，今天你也气我不去，你臭，我可比你更臭！两个人，亲不下去就是要硬斗了。
Saturday, February 19, 2011
不必上班的日子
五天了。在过去上班的五天里，我竟然错过了那么重要的时刻，原来，真的不需要我的出现，进展还是会每一天累积的，惊喜就在我不必上班的日子呈现了，我又气又喜，孙先生说我过分紧张了。
今天的心情，突然不那么紧张彷徨了。凡人而已，还是会嗜睡，还是会心野，依然嘴馋，对电视节目难分难舍。这段不停安慰自己的日子，我竟然也同时安慰了好些人，翠玲说的有意思，我们不应该只用自己的那一套 套在别人的烦脑袋上；学习接纳吧。我觉得你我他应该做的事情，你和他未必认同，我也无法勉强，好吧~大家就尽量不增加彼此的烦恼吧！豁出去了！
今天的心情，突然不那么紧张彷徨了。凡人而已，还是会嗜睡，还是会心野，依然嘴馋，对电视节目难分难舍。这段不停安慰自己的日子，我竟然也同时安慰了好些人，翠玲说的有意思，我们不应该只用自己的那一套 套在别人的烦脑袋上；学习接纳吧。我觉得你我他应该做的事情，你和他未必认同，我也无法勉强，好吧~大家就尽量不增加彼此的烦恼吧！豁出去了！
Thursday, February 17, 2011
夜 元宵
可以把元宵节当感恩日吗？有关心的鸡精礼盒，有花言巧语的白衣天使，有友爱的新鲜花束，还有血缘的慰问支持，还有还有，还有最值钱最有份量的女伴，和小魔王家庭扑心扑命的付出，小鸡啦，飞天天使，热热辣辣欢送会，今年元宵别有一格，竟然巧遇花车路经此地，我赶紧双手合一 对花车许愿，多想打开6楼窗户把柑抛出去再许个愿。
朋友，今夜 多珍重。
明天，多约会!
朋友，今夜 多珍重。
明天，多约会!
眼睡 =.=
眼皮累了。最近比较早睡，好现象，但肉体上的休息还是无法补充精神上的流失，我在想：该怎样去松弛我的紧张？Social life 我有啊~ 朋友聚餐也有啊~上网看电视聊电话我有啊~吃的份量也多了，碳水化合物的吸收也加倍，我害怕缺食会让我生病，水果也吃多了 害怕维他命不够，上班的时间也长了，害怕赶不上工作的进度，害怕耽误了同事们的进度，顾虑太多，会累，但只要回到609B，我就踏实了，只有实实在在地握住那双手我的心才能定下来，原来，两个人的意义就是酱。
Monday, February 14, 2011
MyValentine'sEvening
不一样的圣诞，不一样的新年，不一样的除夕，不一样的立春，不一样的情人节，一路走来，两个人，一条心。兔年的情人节我依然有赏心悦目的花，漂亮的牡丹花和清甜的橘子陪我们俩渡过了最亲蜜的日子最深的吻最难忘的兔。
昨天的心情起伏张力大得吓人，很快地调解忐忑的心，~凡事包容、凡事相信、凡事盼望、凡事忍耐、爱是永不止息~。国宝没放弃，曾子平医生也信心满满，我更是应该抹干眼泪坚持到底。
昨天的心情起伏张力大得吓人，很快地调解忐忑的心，~凡事包容、凡事相信、凡事盼望、凡事忍耐、爱是永不止息~。国宝没放弃，曾子平医生也信心满满，我更是应该抹干眼泪坚持到底。
Sunday, February 13, 2011
没有JackJack的第一晚。miss~
Life is like riding on a roller coaster.... there's always up and down, in such a momentum.
今晚，孤独的肚皮有两粒糯米糍相伴。
今晚，孤独的肚皮有两粒糯米糍相伴。
突破之旅
无从说起。
突破之旅，一点也不惊险，没有想像中那么冒汗，很为自己的勇气吐气扬眉了，过了一关，也不过如此，没什么大不了，小魔头妈妈也不过是要来壮壮胆，自己不跨过那一步，熊胆也帮不了。明天，就要和积积母子分离了，他会学哥哥那么乖巧吗？接下来抗魔的日子，我就愈来愈孤单了，必须越战越勇！
突破之旅，一点也不惊险，没有想像中那么冒汗，很为自己的勇气吐气扬眉了，过了一关，也不过如此，没什么大不了，小魔头妈妈也不过是要来壮壮胆，自己不跨过那一步，熊胆也帮不了。明天，就要和积积母子分离了，他会学哥哥那么乖巧吗？接下来抗魔的日子，我就愈来愈孤单了，必须越战越勇！
Saturday, February 12, 2011
喘 。慌
假如，
有一天你在凌晨4点，因为呼吸困难呼吸急促而无法平静下来，在心中感到恐慌又无助的时候，打开眼睛发现身边没有人，你怕吗？然后就越怕越慌，越慌就越气喘。
我们，除了心里头要有喜欢的人，生活上要有亲朋戚友，身边总要有关心自己的人，在我们最无助最需要关心的时候，那种心灵感应是一支强心针，比高保额的保险金来得更强心。
请为你以后会凌晨气喘的日子，现在就做好准备。多多关心身边需要你的人，功德无量的爱心多多益善。
有一天你在凌晨4点，因为呼吸困难呼吸急促而无法平静下来，在心中感到恐慌又无助的时候，打开眼睛发现身边没有人，你怕吗？然后就越怕越慌，越慌就越气喘。
我们，除了心里头要有喜欢的人，生活上要有亲朋戚友，身边总要有关心自己的人，在我们最无助最需要关心的时候，那种心灵感应是一支强心针，比高保额的保险金来得更强心。
请为你以后会凌晨气喘的日子，现在就做好准备。多多关心身边需要你的人，功德无量的爱心多多益善。
Thursday, February 10, 2011
报到皮居天
年初八了，今晚要在鹰阁拜天公了。我的第一次呢!
又是第一天， 又是第一次，值得在这提一提。祝福我前程似锦吧!
我，报喜不报忧，因为我觉得身边少一个担忧的人，我就少一个烦恼。我错了么？
过去让它过去，来不急~
又是第一天， 又是第一次，值得在这提一提。祝福我前程似锦吧!
我，报喜不报忧，因为我觉得身边少一个担忧的人，我就少一个烦恼。我错了么？
过去让它过去，来不急~
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
愤
愤，是因为不满 而生的一口闷气。
我愤，因为我无法迁怒於他人。
我再愤，我也不想有悔的一刻。
己所不欲，勿施于人，这包括了我们不想被对待的方式，不病的人能参透么？？？
这段日子，让我深深地体会到家庭教育的重要，人的思想思维心态观念，不管是感性的心智还是理性的行为，和高深教育或社会地位是未必成正比的，说浅白一点，上一代如何教育下一代去思考生存之道是很很很很很影响下一代的成长和往后处人待事的理念与态度。我真的很庆幸我来自一个那么信任与支持我的家庭，nene从小传授的都受益无穷，我为他们感到骄傲。人家说，付出不必求回报。我不认同，我现在所付出的，我每天每秒都期望能换回比以前更健康的国宝，我真的希望上天会回报给我更实在的进展。每当我信心满满的时候，我会突然被很无助的人与事打败，我很气，很愤怒，为什么神要创造那么多不同思维的脑袋？一个等待奇迹的病人还不够么？？为什么还要抛给我那么多外来的困扰，外在的难题？
假如这些不幸的考验降临在你身上，你会愿意去接受这种不妥善的待遇么？对不起，我也开始迷糊了，什么是妥善什么又是不妥善呢？只能说：人的价值观像黑洞，难以摸索。
你觉得你不会后悔的话，请便吧~
我愤，因为我无法迁怒於他人。
我再愤，我也不想有悔的一刻。
己所不欲，勿施于人，这包括了我们不想被对待的方式，不病的人能参透么？？？
这段日子，让我深深地体会到家庭教育的重要，人的思想思维心态观念，不管是感性的心智还是理性的行为，和高深教育或社会地位是未必成正比的，说浅白一点，上一代如何教育下一代去思考生存之道是很很很很很影响下一代的成长和往后处人待事的理念与态度。我真的很庆幸我来自一个那么信任与支持我的家庭，nene从小传授的都受益无穷，我为他们感到骄傲。人家说，付出不必求回报。我不认同，我现在所付出的，我每天每秒都期望能换回比以前更健康的国宝，我真的希望上天会回报给我更实在的进展。每当我信心满满的时候，我会突然被很无助的人与事打败，我很气，很愤怒，为什么神要创造那么多不同思维的脑袋？一个等待奇迹的病人还不够么？？为什么还要抛给我那么多外来的困扰，外在的难题？
假如这些不幸的考验降临在你身上，你会愿意去接受这种不妥善的待遇么？对不起，我也开始迷糊了，什么是妥善什么又是不妥善呢？只能说：人的价值观像黑洞，难以摸索。
你觉得你不会后悔的话，请便吧~
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Shared by Kiyomi-san:
Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.
~Mother Teresa
Life is sucks! you just have to suck it well!
Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.
~Mother Teresa
Life is sucks! you just have to suck it well!
And Life is not Love, so there is no betrayal, Life is all yours, be responsible coz you going to marry yourself.
Nothing is free under the Sun, so does LIFE.
~HoneyBee.
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
MiRaCle
我今天，如常，确定没便秘的问题，感恩；尿尿顺畅，感恩；臭屁没放，响屁倒是有，很爽，感恩；早餐在饭堂买了两块芋头糕，加点辣椒酱，三两口就吞得一干二净，感恩；外出午餐还有专车接送，手还很有力地拿着汤匙和叉，只管吃，嘴巴除了吃吃喝喝，还和饭友八卦说笑，真感谢主让我有眼有鼻有前有后有耳朵有嘴嘴牙齿喉咙舌头，手手脚脚健在五官也还算端正，能小便能大便原来是比中万字彩票更开心更欢乐！这个世界创造了Miracle这个字就是要解释那些突如其来的兴奋与雀跃,铁男终於可以动他的右脚了!还能双手合掌拍拍拍拍拍呢!!! 我感觉到他的小宇宙了!
不管你是小鸡还是天使，有翅膀还是飞不起，请你看到这里现在赶快马上立刻去小个便，检查它有没有异味，颜色请不清，尿量够不够，如常的话，请谢天谢地并带着感恩的心说：Mi Ra Cle !!
不管你是小鸡还是天使，有翅膀还是飞不起，请你看到这里现在赶快马上立刻去小个便，检查它有没有异味，颜色请不清，尿量够不够，如常的话，请谢天谢地并带着感恩的心说：Mi Ra Cle !!
Sunday, February 6, 2011
放松
最近一直在听这个由美国Dr.EldonTaylor发明的“全脑开发- 内在交谈” CD，有一段话是“放松、放松、放松。。。” -- 放松，谈何容易，对生命对家人对自我价值 我是不可能置之不理，精神放松态度也得绷紧，认定了自己的价值观才会有生存的意义。我真的搞不清楚为什么都这个年代了还是有那么多无知的人为别人而活，把自己的灵魂存放在另一个无价的躯体上，然后再千辛万苦地祈求那躯体会好好保存那不属于他的灵魂，换成是你，你不累么？
压力，很无形，要拿走压力并不难，可以睡一个健康觉，可以练瑜珈，可以畅谈，可以大吃大喝，看看电视看看书本听听音乐环游世界，但要挪走制造压力的外人，OhMyGod! 这可以是一个很煎熬的过程，少点能耐与宽容的心就不成事了。朋友，关心我，请别来增加我的负担，你抛给我的压力，反弹力是超乎想像的，难道你就不能放松 放轻轻松松去给我轻轻松松的空间么？要不然，我借你copy Dr.EldonTaylor的自我肯定话语，你自己去听去学习，我没有时间和精力去开导你了。
愿大家，兔年 放松成长吧~
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怪怪的，不是说好要好好轮流照顾国宝的吗？怎么我有股孤军作战的感觉？国宝今天心情和精神都好好，你们都不赶紧来看看他轻松的笑脸么？从窗外看去，交通好好 也没塞车啊~ 拜托~这里是医院 不是老人院，怎么遗弃感那么重，你说，你说，你要我怎么放松？？
压力，很无形，要拿走压力并不难，可以睡一个健康觉，可以练瑜珈，可以畅谈，可以大吃大喝，看看电视看看书本听听音乐环游世界，但要挪走制造压力的外人，OhMyGod! 这可以是一个很煎熬的过程，少点能耐与宽容的心就不成事了。朋友，关心我，请别来增加我的负担，你抛给我的压力，反弹力是超乎想像的，难道你就不能放松 放轻轻松松去给我轻轻松松的空间么？要不然，我借你copy Dr.EldonTaylor的自我肯定话语，你自己去听去学习，我没有时间和精力去开导你了。
愿大家，兔年 放松成长吧~
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怪怪的，不是说好要好好轮流照顾国宝的吗？怎么我有股孤军作战的感觉？国宝今天心情和精神都好好，你们都不赶紧来看看他轻松的笑脸么？从窗外看去，交通好好 也没塞车啊~ 拜托~这里是医院 不是老人院，怎么遗弃感那么重，你说，你说，你要我怎么放松？？
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Friday, February 4, 2011
兔gather - 大年初二
开年啰~! 咚咚咚咚锵! 立春了，今天开始，一切重新调解，整装待发，要好好利用自己的八字去改改运气了，风水师说得对，命的一半在于天时地利，我们无法预知或控制世界经济地理变换，但我们可以学习控制自己的言语举止，学习改正自己不完美的一面，学习自我增值，学习吸取贵人，学习中庸，学习慷慨，学习向善，学习多一点点的关心，学习对自己负责任，学习对家人承担，学习感恩，学习放下，学习不停的学习，也学习不停的分享、不停的教导身边的人。
对自己好好，就是对身边关心你的人的回报。
天助自助的人，我相信一切的不可能 有一天是会可能的。
Last nite I was watching Sammi's concert from Astro, Ironman bought me the original DVD from HK, love it! We wacthed it many times together. We also love the so-called modern-holy-songs sang by Sammi, nice one! One of my friends wrote it in facebook: "
唯独你是不可取替
对自己好好，就是对身边关心你的人的回报。
天助自助的人，我相信一切的不可能 有一天是会可能的。
Last nite I was watching Sammi's concert from Astro, Ironman bought me the original DVD from HK, love it! We wacthed it many times together. We also love the so-called modern-holy-songs sang by Sammi, nice one! One of my friends wrote it in facebook: "
唯独你是不可取替
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
除夕-我的拥抱呢？
有惊无险的除夕日。好多人都回家吃团圆饭了。今年，我们在合你大道的吴潮记吃午饭特餐当团圆，芋泥好好吃，但我吃得心不在焉，不安的心不是没有理由的，最后换来有惊无险的一天。我的拥抱呢？留待年初一吧~
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
转机。转运
大人的世界没有百万富翁这硬板游戏么？还是百万富翁根本不再了不起？
兔年将至了，我没有做百万富翁的本事，我只希望能抽一抽机会，抽一抽命运，好让兔年事事如意，万象更新。今天赶得上为孙先生送上礼饼，反而是我满心欢喜，总觉得该为国宝做些什么的，我想，他也会和我一样感恩的，孙先生真的是难得的贵人，医者父母心，我能明白孙先生那天对我说的那一翻话，其实他不必心疼我的，直觉告诉我，他并没有当我是一般的顾客，那份真实又发自内心的关心我是感受到的，我很感激他，我很感激上天让我们遇到了这双妙手。接下来，就要遇上机会和好运了!
兔年将至了，我没有做百万富翁的本事，我只希望能抽一抽机会，抽一抽命运，好让兔年事事如意，万象更新。今天赶得上为孙先生送上礼饼，反而是我满心欢喜，总觉得该为国宝做些什么的，我想，他也会和我一样感恩的，孙先生真的是难得的贵人，医者父母心，我能明白孙先生那天对我说的那一翻话，其实他不必心疼我的，直觉告诉我，他并没有当我是一般的顾客，那份真实又发自内心的关心我是感受到的，我很感激他，我很感激上天让我们遇到了这双妙手。接下来，就要遇上机会和好运了!
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