Thursday, March 31, 2011

不懂

不懂身边的人需要怎样的关怀,这个人,不懂何谓关怀。
不认为付出是一种福气的人,这个人,不懂何谓牺牲。
相信命运天注定的人,这个人,不懂何谓争取,何谓改变。

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Simpson.My.Angel

God has been really good to me, God sent me another angel, to read 1-2-3 with me, and also to do 1+2+3 with me, that's always my luck... to be surrounded by angels, luvly one~ charming one~ unselfish one~
God also arranged a wonderful shelter for Belle. God knows my toughtime, God listened to my prayers, God made miracles happened. And so, I'll keep praying hard..... I can't wait to see miracles happen on ME, I just have too many wishes... I'm a demanding daughter to him~
I'm waiting for my mushroom to grow me like SuperMario... bigger n bigger, stronger n stronger, more n more mushrooms. more n more gold coins for me~ :-)

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Quote10

" 既然上了賊船,就要做個成功的海盜。"

Monday, March 28, 2011

有得选择的话。。。

在有选择能力的情况下,任谁也想当那个做抉择的人,谁会自愿放弃选择的权力呢?
你会想要-选你所想择你所要-的 还是希望一切都被违愿安排呢?亲人,我们没得选,天注定的血缘,我们只好接受,那~身外物呢?另一半呢?工作呢?前途呢?健康的体魄?退休后的生活呢?下一代的续缘呢?我们所追求的物质,我们暗恋的对象,我们期待的dreamhouse,我们渴望的奢侈,最后,只能说一句:己所不欲,勿施于人。你,可以选择不要,但请你别随意施舍。你,可以任意做决定,但请你别忽略前因后果。你,可以爱,可以不爱,但请别留下悔恨,你也可以大大方方当个笨傻瓜,但别天真的认为聪敏的我是又聋又盲又哑巴,我是会生气的,我生气的时候,如果有得选择的话,我会希望任吃不肥,越吃越苗条,嘴巴塞满了食物就不必生别人的气了。
闷气,有得选的话,我想重来。

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Quote9

"You have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future.
You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever.
This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life."
- Steve Jobs

EXACTLY!

难舍

千言万语/王菲
我出生那年的邓丽君

不知道为了什么
忧愁它围绕着我
我每天都在祈祷
快赶走爱的寂寞
那天起 你对我说
永远的爱着我
千言和万语
随浮云掠过

亲情

是信任
是支持
是爱护
是忍耐
是后盾
是捍卫
是原谅
是安慰
是包容 是包涵
是血脉相连 血浓于水 无限付出
不计算 不记仇 不回避 不求回报
只求安心
只求团聚
我还是那句:人在做,天在看,天知地知你知我知他也会知。

(后注:朋友的亲人的无限帮忙,是会幸运地中字的!)

Saturday, March 26, 2011

我的新志愿

假如我是心理学家,事情会不会容易办得多呢?
要揣摩情绪病,本身的情绪控制就是一门学问了,原本的我是那么的情绪化那么的不知所措那么的急需精神与心灵上的支援,但神给了我考验,艰难的,感觉上我变成了柯楠,日日夜夜都在侦查情绪病的根源,到底--答案在哪里?

Friday, March 25, 2011

MaquiJuice

MaquiJuice@RM117 - Miracle Juice? nah... yet to read such an outbreaking news, but I won't mind to spend a little money to 'research' just a little bit more on it, yup~ that's me: Never Try Never Know... and I wanna experience it so I could tell the 'results', then I shall able to SHOUT it out LOUD: Shoooooooo... you all nonsense products Shooooooooooooooo!! BUT, if this line 'these statements have not been evaluated by the FDA...' is giving me just another detox-juice, spending a little for now to avoid more friends being cheated --> Worth it still.
Another Friday nite with a lovely visitor, always my great listener :-)
How many more Fridays I gotto be here? GOD... please guide me.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Frenz Are To Call, Not To Bore

So, I'm the lucky one.
Oh yeah... I found my keys, I found the spares too. I've got someone many ones to help me out. You know what? it's very true~ friends are for you to call, to call up to check their status, to call up to check if they need help,to call up for food for games for leisure, to call them up when you need help & attention. How many friends on your cellphone address book? do you really call them up often? perhaps I should ask: Do you care to make a greeting call to your frenz for a casual chat? I care. Do call me, not to bore.

Disturbance

Ooohhh... what a miserable day!
2 days ago, failed to renew the roadtax and realized there's a blacklisted-summons on-hold.
yesterday, the CRV battery was dead without any symptoms. well~ can't blaim much, it's my fault that I never maintain any car. and the Waja also didn't really perform well in the heavy rain last nite, but thanks God, I reached my destiny safely. I was praying hard to have the power windows functioning as normal, thanks God again, they did.
This morning, I was so ready to call somebody to bring in a new battery for the CRV, but the car keys gone in the wind... so, what's next? how worse it can go? I don't know...

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

阻力令我沮丧

我承认,我不会替车子轮胎充气。笨吗?
搞到十个手指头都脏兮兮的,才惊觉自己是在替轮胎放风,原想证明自己是能克服一切的难题,却连这么简单的琐事都搞不定,只能怪怕事的自己太太太依赖他了,想尽办法自助的时候真的很沮丧。

(再续)

Monday, March 21, 2011

爆了

今天心情超低落,不受控的,感觉到我的小宇宙有被炸开了一角,心灵疲惫,很孤军作战子弹也没的无助,眼珠也有爆开的感觉,头昏脑涨,咖啡喝了一杯又一杯,麻烦的事就一桩接一桩,不顺意的事情都像约好一起来的,难到今天不利巨蟹座么?
看见国宝右手握住我左手呼噜睡去,我知道我按摩的功夫不是盖的,但我能把强悍的他按醒吗?我愿意。

Sunday, March 20, 2011

玉兰肥鸡

一路上雨不停,碰上好几单车祸,赶到医院都很晚了,赶紧把玉兰肥鸡端上,国宝开心大笑,一眼就把适苑的招牌玉兰肥鸡叫出来了,让他吃了几口,心情大好,每张照片里的佳肴他都是那么地熟悉。。。看见了泪光,真的很难受。曾经,好多年前,我不悦地对国宝说:“为什么你就爱吃粗粗干干的鸡胸肉?嫩嫩的鸡腿才好吃呢!我们的喜爱怎么不一样?”国宝这么告诉我:“这才是我们最-夹-的地方,不管一只还是半只鸡,总之一盘鸡来到,我吃鸡胸肉,鸡腿都留给你,不必吵也不必争,刚刚好。”我真的好后悔,我真的很自责,我真的错了,我都错过了。

~BalikBandar~

For Him - on March19


Surprise is always surprise, priceless, regardless.


Wednesday, March 16, 2011

~Swing~Swing~Swing~

Someone said it me today: it's been long you didn't update your blog!
wow~ since when? since when you guys are anticipating for my post? or, you're just waiting for more juicy gossips? well~ I always see myself a very adaptive person until my buddy told me that's called resilient, so, my mood swing with my close ones. When he's anxious, me too. When he sleepless, me too. When he fart, i fart louder, and I thank God that I can still fart out loud. Recently, his appetite improved, me too. Seeing him losing that much of weight, you should noticed that I'm absorbing those kgs.
Back to the ward, weirdo everywhere everyday.
Don't they realized the THINGS they took/used are not supposed to be shared? Can't they hang their undies somewhere else? should I beg them to keep the toilet rolls INSIDE the toilet? worst, ain't they here to take care or accompany the patient? why are they so kepor about eyeing on the neighbor? @.@
Why can't they just keep those Q&A funtime with their doctors? Do I look like an artist waiting for interviews?

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Have A Break!

Oh Yes. Everyone needs a break. I need a break too. Gimme A Break.
-PEACE-
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Great. Finally everyone is taking a break now. NO VISITOR.
and finally I'm home, lights' on, TV's on, Aircon's on, fan's on, sleepless nite.
when I woke up in the morning, I could feel my puffy eyes hanging on my restless brain.
What a break.
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It'a sunny sunday today. 雨过天晴.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

人非草木

我生气了。
我在这边不停地替他人着想,很想减轻他们的负担,想让大家各忙各的,但事情发展到今天,实在太不如我意了,你跟我说你累,你累什么累呢?我都把担子扛起来了,你还敢说累?!还敢说什么我也已经很累 我应该回家休息,拜托,我就是因为你说帮忙帮到累了,要我把它们解决掉,我才每天来回岛与岛之间,阿姨们也别再问为什么我这么晚才到医院了,我的原因就是因为:他们不扛的,我扛。你们来到病房,就只有不停的问:为什么没做这个 为什么没给那个 医生说什么 为什么这里会这样 为什么那里是酱的 为什么食物吃不完 为什么这这这?为什么那那那? 天啊!!! 你像我一样的做多一点点 探他多一点点 陪他久一点再学如何从病人的角度去想他要的是什么,你会找到答案的。假如有一天我遇状况了,不同宗教信仰的你,会为我向主耶稣祷告么?你会为我翻开圣经唱爱的箴言么?当你在说-为他好-这三个字的时候,我真心希望那都是从他的出发点去想。
为他,我一定点也不累,我该怕的都不怕了,看见他我就安心,任他发脾气什么的我也不在乎,因为我有更重要的目标,就是要他开心的活下去,他值得他曾经所拥有的。我会累,是因为我要应对的人与事,太煎熬我的思绪了,神又在考验我了,我需要更多的智慧和能量去抵挡那些煎熬我的对白 和解决那些他们帮不上忙的事,我也感激上天对我的看顾,我总有谅解我的朋友 谅解我的同事 谅解我的家人 还有谅解我的自己。你们不会明白,那么多在谅解我帮忙我和聆听我的朋友,其实都在帮了你们许许多多,没有这些天使们,我也没办法去扛你们扛不了的。
别再低估我的能量小宇宙了,我只要你想,想一想:“换成是我,我要我的亲人爱人怎么样?” (认真的想一想吧)

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Yes, I am angry.
Just less than 3 months, and you're telling me you are tired, yet, you kept mentioning to me that you're gonna do things that's good for "long-term". What is LONG TERM now?
I never deny your intention, I know all of us trying our best for him, but can we not to set the limit other than the dollars? You all asking me to STOP, REST, and RELAX, have you ever ask me if these are what I need now? I need to force myself to go "somewhere" to pretend I'm resting so you all could FEEL I am relax, and that ADD whole lots of burden to me. You told me you could HELP to take care the empty house and dogs, and now you told me you already got tired and wanted me to "settle" them, THEN please don't offer help, indeed, I will goto work everyday, meet my nice friends and colleagues everyday, and yet, i go home take care the dogs everyday, and i can still come back to the ward to see him and take care of him. I'm not superwoman, I'm not heroin, I'm not doing charity here, I'm doing things that I know he wants me to do even though he very very very sorry to add burden on me.
I want to say: it's our 8th years now, I never got tired to share my life with him, but I am now truly tired to talk to you all just to hope you all could understand me and him a little bit more. Please don't put words into my mouth, and don't stuff thoughts into my mind.

I will leave if that's all he wants from me.
I may rest as you wish if anyone of you could take over my role.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

我的近况

最近,我凌晨5点就起身了,上班前的功夫还蛮多的,拜拜后还要替国宝推拿按摩松筋骨,还来得极喂早点和草莓口味的spirulina。到新办公室上班的途中,总会有点塞车,正好让我有丁点私人时间边听收音机边吃三文治。这又隐蔽又装神秘的办公室让我无时无刻都有卧虎藏龙的感觉,大开眼界。我,又有新的姿态了,这次我想让自己看起来更有专业的味道,只好随波逐浪了,只要吃力后不会不讨好,我也很乐意去伪装。

Quote8

Whatever does not kill you
really does make you stronger.

好想

好想 好想
好想 好想
好想 好想
好想 好想
好想 好想
好想 好想
好想 好想
好想 好想
好想 好想
好想 好想
好想 好想
重来好么?

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

609号房

昨晚,身在609号房,我并不太敢把事情的来龙去脉写在部落格,总担心有什么的躲在身后,有种心虚的感觉。其实,昨天凌晨电视机的白光雪花我是看得一清二楚的,荧幕右下角的“9”特别清楚,那感觉很清晰,我是肯定地清醒,还不止一次呢!然后,它就“自动地”被关上了,我的心当场寒一寒,还得装没事的深沉入睡,噢~为什么让我遇上这回事?

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

今晚,天天天晴。

离开,需要勇气。
留下,需要智慧。
相识,需要缘分。
相爱,需要包容与信任。

己所不欲,勿施于人。我真心希望我和大家都能在自己能力范围以内为身边的人多多着想,也想想自己每天睡醒开始新的一天,你幢憬的生活是什么画面?

To leave, needs the courage.
To stay, needs the winsdom.
To meet and to know each other, needs the fate.
To love and to be loved, needs tolerance and trust.

Don't do unto others what you don't want others do unto you.
- Tonite, I posted this note in my facebook wall: - is breathing that's all for living?? what if one day you woke up and found yourself at a different place, in a different house, pets lost, money gone, loved one no longer there, nothing belongs to you, only you, breathing...... what kind of life is that?

别让

当我将要进入极度害怕的时刻
我却本能地将害怕转化为保护的力量
我必当尽力去抵挡那恶的
我必尽全能去维护我爱的
这一切天降的勇气全赖-无悔的心-

这个凌晨锻炼了我的决心和面对的勇气
这个经历让我坚固了自己的信念
那个假镇定的恐惧肯定了我的价值
原来,我的极限又夸多一步了!


不想再有“早知道,就 ”的话就别自作聪明自作主张自私自我自寻烦恼,也别让自己只拥有自己,那将会很孤单。

Monday, March 7, 2011

精明的第一天

人生有起有伏
心情有好有坏
事业有起有落
咪咪有大有小
想不到驾车也有左右分叉路
第一天,就左右不分取错道了

第一天正正式式正正经经整整齐齐认认真真地早睡早起
还是敌不过太认真又心不在焉的那瞬间
我就像抛物线那样远离了Coastal Highway往咸蛋黄驶去。
好好笑吧~精明的我竟然败给blurblur的我。

Saturday, March 5, 2011

赶不走的蛇

走!
走!走!走!走走走走走!!!!!
我还是没走,走不了,很心疼,开始不肯定明天会是怎样的心情了。

Thursday, March 3, 2011

当蜂人遇上疯38--

--有你好看!!
一切预料中事,离开岗位之前必定遭受无法理喻的小家舌功,东百句,西千句,南北各万句,小家男小家女都38得不亦乐乎,真是-家家有堆能人所不能的cheap精-。

I never aim to snatch anything from you, so please don't over estimate yourself, you've got nothing worth my attention other than your stupidity. How could you treat me like that?! I ain't no thief u know... you don't have to pull back every item and lock them up from me. Afterall, they are just keys that I can't even use them to dig my nose - useless! You have lost my respect to you, and your "curiousity" has also gain you fame-of-naive. So now that I'm leaving... Good Luck to you!

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Fistula

It's quite rediculous. I'm the one -Resilient- but I'm not the one suffering from the pain.
Not a good day for me, but still glad that my 555 booklet still there.

---------------Obviously------------------ was very sleepy----------------------------
For the past three days, dd was getting well interms of his mood and temper, I credited it to the DrElton's CD, peaceful nites as well, with laughters. Fistula was done finally, successfully. My laptop win7 upgrade also done, but not very good one. Guess it's not something fancy for a dummy like me, I just want my MSN back, why it's giving me hard time to chat LIVE? *sigh* and now, I can't even recall my password and there's only 2 persons on my Skype list. Good Or Bad???

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Laughters~ LOL

The most pleasant thing is to hear someone Laugh Out Loud at my silly jokes. and it happens several times tonite~ :) How often do you bring laughters to people surrounding you? Have you ever care to make a silly face to make them happy? How loud could you laugh? and How loud could you make others laugh like crazy? How much of jokes have you listened to today? if you hear nothing... then, be the one to creates troubles.